chocolate sundae & papaddom

back on board

2011-09-09T10:05:00.000+08:00

hui. punya la lama nak update. selalunya, setiap bulan sekurang- kurangnya mesti ada satu post. maaf la, training di plant sungguh memenatkan, tidak ku sangka sebegitu rupa. will update on that later.

me and boyfie are still going on strong. we still love each other. cuma ade la konflik sikit-sikit, but nothing big. we just hit our 3 years! :) orang selalu cakap, lepas 3 tahun mesti tak tahan. tapi tengok kawan lain ok je dah nak 10 tahun pun. we will reach our 4th year next April. inshaAllah, when the time comes, and duit poket pun cukup, we will take it to the next level.

p/s: still deeply,madly in love with you! ♥

Malaysia vs Singa pura-pura

2011-07-31T21:55:00.008+08:00

Hari Khamis lepas aku ke SNBJ - "Stadium keramat Harimau Malaya" untuk menyaksikan game Malaysia vs Singapore. Berkobar-kobar semangat nak pi tengok game. Hari selasa aku dh apply half day padahal tiket tak beli lagi mase tu. Hari selasa member pi SBNJ nk beli tiket, alik-alik habis lak. Aduyai. Aku dah moral down petang tu. Nak buat kerja pong dah malas. Damn.

Aku push gak member mintak pi beli esok pagi. Finally, we got the tickets! Hell yeah! Damn happy gile. Aku tersengih je satu hari kat ofis sementara nak tunggu Khamis. Lambat tol aku rase masa berjalan. Damn.

Hari Khamis pong tiba. Muka aku x berhenti sengih lagi. Padahal nak gi tengok bola je pon, bukannye nak pi tengok awek F1. =D Aku janji dengan member nak sampai Seri Kembangan jam 2.30 pm. Damn. Jam gile kat Tasik Selatan. Ade la dekat setengah jam aku sangkut kt MRR2 untuk perjalanan jarak 1KM je. Damn lagi. Aku ingat jam sampai bukit jalil, naseb baik tekaan aku salah. Jam takat Tasik Selatan je.

Lepak kat Seri Kembangan sampai pukul 4 then off to SBNJ. Sampai sana before 5pm. Parking kat TPM. Peluh2 aku jalan. Panas lak petang tu. Time sampai crowd dah ade tapi tak la sampai tahap melimpah ruah. Lepak2 jap usha baju then teros masuk dalam nak cop tempat. Tempat yg aku dapat baik punye. Ade awek lecur plak. Kahkah. Member dok cuci mate je sebelum game. Alik-alik awek tu blah. Ade yang kecewa sampai ke malam. Haha.

Sebelum, semasa dan selepas game memang happening gile. Tak macam masa game arsenal lwn malaysia haritu. Sampai serak aku jerit malam tu. Damn singapore, banyak lak berlakon nk waste time. Aku malas nak komen banyak pasal game tu. Sebab semua orang dah komen. Malas nak mengulang benda sama. Haha. Ade satu time aku sebak masa nyanyi lagu Inilah barisan kita after game habis. Benda ni xde tunjuk live kt tv. Damn sebak. Nasib baik tak tumpah air mata. Kalau tak buat malu je.

After game, lepak-lepak makan kat Puncak Jalil kot nama tempat tu. Bengong punye waiter, meja yg ade awek die layan dulu. Mentang2 la kitorang ni balak je sume. Cis. Dah la nak tunggu air sikit punye lame. Harga mahal. Nasib baik abg happy payong dinner+supper kitorang. Kitorang pon jadi happy skali. Credit to Hanif Zawawi. Thanks bro. Lain kali aku payong ko lak. Hehe.

Esoknye aku EL. Malas nak gi keje. Haha

Before game

Mr Hanif Zawawi

Muka garang

Warm up session

Kembali

2011-05-17T21:20:00.002+08:00

Selepas lebih kurang 3 bulan tak blogging, akhirnya aku kembali jua dengan imej yg kini lebih ranggi berbanding 3 bulan yg lepas. Apa yg dimaksudkan dengan 'ranggi'? Jika dilihat berdasarkan penampilan aku, ranggi itu boleh diibaratkan seperti sebiji belon yg diisi air. Faham? Kalau tak faham jugak, tengok la gambar kt bawah. Atau dalam kata lain, ranggi itu bererti berisi, comel dan macho. Complete set untuk orang2 seperti aku.

Banyak perkara yg berlaku sepanjang 3 bulan lepas. Banyak outstation jumpa si dia, kerja bertimbun2, ekonomi turun naik, komputer rosak, dll. Malas nak elaborate panjang2, nanti bosan pulak org nak membaca.

Sekarang ni aku dh ada aim untuk masa akan datang, kalau dulu main redah je. Aku sekarang nak simpan duit banyak2, mau tunang dan kahwin, mau beli pc baru(dh lame gian nak main game), dan membeli perkakas.aset yang berguna pada masa akan datang.

Anyway, aku ucapkan selamat menjalani Latihan Industri kepada si dia. Jangan takut2 k, semangat saya sentiasa berada di sisimu. Semoga dapat menimba pengalaman yang berguna semasa bekerja nanti. Best of Luck k!

Ranggi kn?

happy birthday to you!

2011-02-09T21:20:00.006+08:00

dear my other half,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

here are virtual cakes for you.

i know! my fav! haha

love, for almost 3 years that we are together, there has not been a moment i regret. i appreciate you more now. i appreciate your patience on my moodswings, my weird cravings and my impulsive actions. i truly believe that no one can 'layan' me like you do. *tears* sob. sob.

you have also teached me to be relaxed, take things slowly and indulge in the moment. nothing good comes in rushing, so you told. you teached me how to distract bad aura and made me focus on my study. you took away my panic, and my insanity. i am now sane. haha.

i love you for who you are and for who i am when im with you. me. the-sloppy-clumsy-sweaty-smelly-fat-ugly-crazy-dahlabanyaksalahcakap-but tough-and berani me. only you are crazy enough to want to spend your lifetime with me. haha.

love, on his 23rd birthday last year.

currently boyfriend is not feeling well due to a bad headache. doctor said he is under stress and a slight increase in blood pressure. dont worry, he already made the promise to quit smoking. hee. but it has already been two days now, and poor love still has not recover yet. he's going to take another leave tomorrow and go for another check up at the hospital to find out what's wrong. please pray for his quick recovery. *im worried sick i tell you!*

"agaknya stress sebab nak beli handphone baru kot. haha". he jokingly told me the other day.

i know you wanted a new phone so bad, and the one you have now is getting on my nerve! cakap pun tak dengar, call pun tak dengar. sorry i couldn't buy it as your birthday prezzie. but i promise i will work hard so that i will have enough for whatever you want next year. boleh?

i wuv wuuuu. xoxo.
*sedihnya macam nak nangis. haha*

girl's anthem.

2011-02-07T20:49:00.004+08:00

earcandy: pretty girl rock; keri hilson.

*lagu penaik semangat!*

right now im wet by my own sweat. *eww*. bau besi dan coolant dari lab turning. im sooo dont feel pretty at all. cermin mata dah dekat 6 tahun pakai. dah senget sikit. urgh, lagi 'comel' dari ugly betty nampaknya. dengan lemak- lemak yang baru diternak ni. so dont hate me coz i'm 'beautiful'.

im paying an old debt post on who is the most beautiful thru your eyes be it your friend, mom, or teacher and why is she beautiful, "Mari Kita Cantik, Gembira dan Bahagia bersama" tagged by cik Balqis kita ni haaa. haha. actually its a contest where faceshop goodies were up for grab but it ended already. oops. (me and my time management. pfft). whatever, im posting it anyway for the fun of it.

ai kenot think of one specific person that's beautiful thru my eyes because there's too many! all my girls are pretty! *their boyfriends/husbands are nodding at the back*. therefore, im going to list the reasons why they are all pretty/beautiful. this is all to you girls out there. cewaah.

the brains. top quality. girls with brains are problem solver, fighter and bold. like spartans likedat. (spartans arent smart?!)
independent. there's nothing sexier than a girl that's independent. pay bills, change car tyres, change the light bulb. seriously, guys are already feeling insecure.
pretty faces. is a bonus. flawless skin, straight pearly teeth, curvy figure. *cant help staring at ya*
one of a kind. different, unique. not easily influenced. she has her own opinion and own way of doing things.
creative. novelist, painter, poet, singer, blogger. able to express herself creatively other than membebel like women always do.
by what she does. i always go wow on pretty and young doctors, lawyers entrepreneurs, young achievers. not only pretty but they have achieved so much.
able to bring herself anywhere. she gets comfortable pretty much everywhere and with everyone. but in modesty.
career women but also can cook! need i describe this? *i want to be you some day*
out-of-nowhere-girl. gadis yang diam- diam ubi berisi. tup- tup buat novel, buat album. kinda like, buat dulu baru bising la. sekarang ni banyak yang duk bising je tapi tak buat hehe.
none judgemental, gossip-free girl. when you talk bad, your appearance go bad also.
the i-dont-care-what-the-world-say girl. not afraid to try, to be herself, to do what she wants to despite of what people would say.

okay. that's the 11 values i value (huh?) in a girl. or woman. thanks for tagging eip! hutang langsai!

p/s: period pain and moodswing and penat tapi buat- buat tak penat dan ceria = gila.

spesimen perempuan cantik (bluerghhh! *cantik celah mana?*) yang gangsterisme.

peaceout.

Senggang

2011-02-03T23:14:00.002+08:00

Lama aku tak update blog ni. Nak ulas pasal isu semasa pun bukan satu benda yang aku minat. Jadilah blog ni penuh dengan update dari Miss Ika je. Maaf ya.

Hari ahad lepas, aku format pc. Dh macam uzur je pc aku ni. Asyik tertidur sendiri je. Nak kene ketuk-ketuk sikit baru la sedar balik. Nasib baik la sedar balik, kalau tak memang mati kutu la aku. Nak on fb, main pes semua tak boleh.

Aku installed window 7 ultimate pada pc aku. First time install window selain dari XP kt pc ni. Nasib baik pc aku ni support window ni. Agak jakun juga la masa lepas install W7. Terkena kejutan budaya window sikit diri aku ni. Haha.

Memandangkan pc ni pun dah uzur sikit, aku rasa macam nak beli pc baru. Tunggu gaji 2-3 bulan baru pi lowyat survey. Memang kali ni aku upgrade baik punya! Aku nak main game yang masyuk-masyuk. Selama ni asyik kempunan je tengok orang lain main game best2. Takpa2, tunggu turn aku lepas ni. Nantikan. . .

arki-tek-tur

2011-01-25T22:58:00.005+08:00

tadaaaa! my first attempt on architecture. it's not my best. but i did it in less than an hour. (bangga kejap).

i had to get the sketches done for my RP project. i was sooo lazy the other night that i snoozed off early with hopes that i'll get up early to do the sketch. but i woke up at 8.30. class in 2 hours time.

membebel sorang- sorang, brushed teeth, cuci muka, make bed = 30 minutes.

watched the time again, ranting and membebel some more.

then i finally sat down, sharpen pensel kayu and took out a piece of paper. i have to get this done!

pija was so scared to get in my 'focus circle'. she just looked from a far and said wow. okayh. temper slightly went down.

have you seen the details on this mosque?! owh btw, my group was assigned to do Masjid Sultan Abu Bakar. we need to cut them in half and put these exotic buildings in a 3D frame. cool or what?

the details was making me mad, so i took off my clothes (do not visualize), and ran for a quick shower to cool down. it wasn't that quick tho. lama la jugak. damn. waste time already.

i got panicked. so with just a towel on (do not visualize again), i continued the detailing but only the obvious ones, i dont have much time. done! i put on my clothes while pija examined the sketch. i heard a wow. wow is such an ego-booster. do not say it too often.

i was in a bad mood when i reach RP class, i hate last minute work. well its my own fault. groupmate wanted to see the sketch and then in a blink of an eye, the sketch have traveled to end of the class. i heard wow like 2 millions time. then nizam asked me, "ika ko fotostat ke lukis ni?". while holding an eraser to prove his theory. "DONT! aku lukis! aku lukis! jangan padam."

then group progress report started, everyone already come out with solidwork drawings. mind you. they took them from seniors, unfortunately no one had done the masjid so we need to do it from scratch. the lecturer was holding my sketch, running his hand on the paper, scratched his head and asked, "lukis ke copy ni?". "emm, lukis cik." wow. 2 millions and one.

my ego went THIS high, hence this post. haha. no lah. i dont really like this one. because it wasn't my best and i was under pressure. dah la senget benget (duh, that's why its called a sketch). so........... anyone free to do this solidwork drawing of the masjid? i'll pay you! and even buy you dinner! promise.

p/s: eip! sorry! nanti aku wat post yang ko tag tu eh.. hehe

Kosong-kosong

2011-01-20T19:27:00.002+08:00

Semenjak dua menjak aku banyak buat problem pada si dia. Memang salah aku. Ada janji2 yang aku tak tunaikan pada dia. Maaf kerana memungkiri janji. Moga2 hati si dia sejuk sikit kt aku. Harap-haraplah......

you.

2011-01-20T12:53:00.001+08:00

being with you is- different. you dont care what people think.
and when i'm with you, it makes me to not care what people think too.

guys in uniform.

2011-01-09T21:47:00.003+08:00

gleek! yes i am. and im all over this new hottie in glee, darren kriss who plays blaine.

5 facts on darren. (yes i googled him)

he's 23. 87 baby.
he's half-Filipino and half-Irish. (and we wonder where he gets the good looks from)
he went to University of Michigan and graduated in 2009 with a Bachelor of Fine Arts in Performance, Acting.
he's playing Blaine, senior to Kurt in all-boys school, and plot shows Kurt and Blaine is an item.
though he plays gay in the series, he is actually straight. (ok im not entirely sure on that, but please, it will be a waste!)

check out his performances in glee. he is well- praised for his job well done. tengok la, sure korang cair punya.

teenage dream cover. katy perry was amazed by his performance, and it is glee's current most downloaded song.
soul sister cover. train lead singer loved it, quoted "i think they did an amazing job".
baby, its cold outside cover. its an old song i presume. i like this one. he's cute when he's all flirty. (minus kurt)

ok lah, maybe he's not all that. i think its gotta be the uniform. guys in uniform-goes-to all-boys-school. a plus plus plus!

in my school days pun selalu ushar EC (English College, JB) boys. sebab uniform dia lain dari lain. Lepas tu, diorang belajar "college", not some typical schools. macam dorang ni selected guys that belong to some association, like all mystery and cool likedat. naive betul masa tu. haha.

yeah, i have few friends in EC, which i forgot their names already. sadly, they are all "Kurt". saya tak kenal langsung yang berblazer, main ragbi, rambut spikey (it was in trend back then) dan lebih tough dari saya.

but they are nice friends though, kadang-kadang merangkap personal style consultant, always had a say in what i wore. and they love me, i think, sebab depa panggil saya yang."yang, yang pass i gunting tu..". hmm, lepas tu lama jugak la kena bahan dengan kawan. it was back in my first debut in puisidra 2002. i was 15.

then in 2003, i went to a business camp held by JCorp, Tunas Bestari. Semua sekolah jb involve termasuk la EC. wakil EC semua yang "Kurt". some of them i've known from puisidra 2002 and 2003. seronok sudah ada kawan :) tapi takde lelaki straight yang kacau saya sepanjang camp tu. hampa. =_=!

but they are none the less the sweetest! jumpa dalam 4 kali je, lepas tu semua event sekolah. tapi diorang ingat saya! masa first year saya, kawan saya yang ambil tesl kat utara call, cakap ade kawan dari EC kirim salam. tsk! terharu ok. and im sorry i dont remember u guys at all. muka pun tak ingat dah. if only i took pictures with you guys, or maybe i did. and i dont know where i put it! waaaaa.

ok, off topic sudah. the point is, the blazer is only until form 5 and then its gone. and a guy is still a guy. heck, what am i ranting about? the blazer-on guys are hot. im not gonna say more. watch the videos, mesti rasa macam diri tu 17 again. nak boyfriend yang belajar kat boarding school and pakai special blazer. ok. maybe just me. :P

darren before glee.

sobs

2011-01-09T21:06:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah

2011-01-09T19:58:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah. Itu kata yang paling sesuai aku ucapkan ketika ini. Aku bersyukur kepada-Mu kerana dimurahkan rezeki setelah beberapa bulan menganggur. Esok merupakan permulaan satu episod baru dalam hidup aku. Semoga aku ditunjukkan jalan yang benar dan sentiasa mendapat keredhaan-Nya. Amin

period.

2011-01-08T10:27:00.002+08:00

cutest couple everrrr. period.

finished (finally) my next on my list, ahern's novel; if you could see me now. berapa lama baru abes baca daa.. dekat setahun. haha. busy la. cant wait to finish school and read off my list!

i love you zooey ♥

let's learn from lyrics!

2011-01-04T18:09:00.004+08:00

want to know what girls look for in a guy? shania twain has a few tips. (courtesy of That Don't Impress Me Much by Shania Twain).

let's look at verse 1 first shall we?

I've known a few guys who thought they were pretty smart
But you've got bein' right down to an art
You think you're a genius, you drive me up the wall
You're a regular original, a know-it-all

Oh-oo-oh, you think you're special
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're something else
Okay, so you're a rocket scientist?

That don't impress me much
So you got the brains but have you got the touch?
Now don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night
That don't impress me much
Uh huh, yeah-yeah

Lesson 1: girls dont need guys to be extra-smart. smart is a necessity. you dont want to go out with someone whos's as dumb as patrick star do ya? but not too smart, like correcting your grammar or your sentence when you speak, or provide unnecessary explanation on everything you pass by when you're walking together. it's like dating your teacher. eww.

I never knew a guy who carried a mirror in his pocket
And a comb up his sleeve, just in case
And all that extra hold gel in your hair oughta lock it
'Cause Heaven forbid it should fall outta place

Oh-oo-oh, you think you're special
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're something else
Okay, so you're Brad Pitt?

That don't impress me much
So you got the looks but have you got the touch?
Now don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night
That don't impress me much

Lesson 2: a guy who worries too much on his look annoys the girl. just who on earth would want a guy who have the same amount of toiletries as a girl? you are crowding the bathroom! let girl have the extra space, not you! "you, you, rambut i ok tak?" *im gonna run you over on 160km/h*. if a girl loves you, you mean the world to her, despite how you look, she'll think you're perfect just the way you are.

You're one of those guys who likes to shine his machine
You make me take off my shoes before you let me get in
I can't believe you kiss your car good night
Come on baby tell me, you must be jokin', right?

Oh-oo-oh, you think you're something special
Oh-oo-oh, you think you're something else
Okay, so you've got a car?

That don't impress me much
So you got the moves but have you got the touch?
Now don't get me wrong, yeah I think you're alright
But that won't keep me warm in the middle of the night
That don't impress me much

Lesson 3: ok this one really bugs me off. material obsessive. its like putting your girl no.2 in your list. that's offensive. come on, man. materials dont last forever, love does. plus, this totally proves you care too much on people's attention. bluerggh. another turn off. an attention seeker. immature.

Lesson 4: i know they always say 'be yourself'. but come to think of it, that phrases only applicable on certain situation. you still need to keep your manners.

ok there you have it. im not the world best advice giver but i found my girlfriends nodding to this song everytime they heard it. maybe there's some truth in it. ok toodles. thanks for reading my shit. haha.

here's the song : That Don't Impress Me Much

2010 end of year summary

2010-12-30T13:57:00.008+08:00

i guess now it's time for another year end summary. instead of making it brief like last year, im going to stuff you guys with overload joy and challenges i manage to overcome this year. i think i have changed drastically in what i am this year. some might see the changes, some might not. the obvious part, i got fat. and no. it's not because of the long distance relationship. its just the part of me that appreciate food. bf so like this part of me, he doesnt have to beg and lure me to eat. i guess he's just happy to be with a girl with big appetite. haha. ok here's the chronology of 2010.

i threw a surprise birthday party for boyfriend. yup some of you might notice that. boyfriend had smile on his face the whole week! read here.
ayah gave (lend) me ahmad. my car. for now. and i love him to bits.
cousins and aunts threw me a birthday party on the weekend when i got home. it was the cutest cake ever! with pop-up pink letters, haha.
i stopped shopping (wasting) for six months. pocket money agak banyak tuk sem seterusnya. and started handling things on my own.
had an awesome pre-grad dinner with former classmates. *tears*
we, the family moved to the big city. no not new york, just kl. im digging in, much more stuff to do, plus more time with relatives.
my ortho check ups at hospital ended early this year. i guess that's why i got fat. i thought i got healthy so i stopped training. i should really get back on that.
i miss a lot on friends at jb this year with all the moving and stuff.
my primary school bestfriend, sajidah got married!
boyfriend graduated. met the family. ever since that, more meet ups. :)
boyfriend got involved in my side of the family as well. we are in the comfortable zone as for now. maybe that's another reason why i got fat.
my team's boat gaijins won first place in mechanical design week. :)
the raya convoy was off the hook! classmate really took it seriously as we might not be seeing each of us much next year. my first time driving in the convoy.
i got involve with uni's program as much as i could. making memories you know. and whole lot of friends.
i got a new baby cousin, and it's a boy.
my kakak, kak bai got hitched! :)
nenek renovated the house in kampung, we tested out the new oven by baking cakes. yummy!
i am finally in my final year. and it was a tough road getting here. i hope i'll manage to cope with this last round.

lets make plan and make 2011 better than 2010!

december report.

2010-12-28T22:55:00.008+08:00

event represented by photos.

1. went up to genting only for gondola rides. thank you mr faisal for the company. :)

2. then went to klims10. ayah was an exhibitor for suria kar II. free entrance! normal price RM20.

3. went up to genting again to watch harry potter and the deathly hallows. how often do you get the chance to watch a movie with all the mist and fog outside?

4. went to rantai 10' and few art shows in balai seni lukis negara. owned the shirt!

5. nenek bardot surprise party. a great way to end the holidays by seeing cousins and relatives.

and cherry on top; a DL. Alhamdulillah.

3 weeks packed! i am fulfilled. hmm.

reminder to self.

2010-12-24T11:58:00.000+08:00

image: flickr

2011 is coming.

2010-12-24T11:56:00.002+08:00

hey ho!

2010-12-20T11:26:00.003+08:00

its not really a hectic week, but um here's what happened in this few days, i was not able to online, sebab asyik menumpang rumah nenek la, rumah acik, rumah paksu..

-me and my sisters went to klims. suria kar was exhibited there. so entrance free! ayah je la, pasai dia exhibitor. disappointed pasal no bmw this year. concept cars pun tak banyak, more to sales je. haihh. tak mencapai objektif.

-went up to genting for the millionth time. bosan dah, atas cable car pun tidur.

- year end sale! but no money.

- psm masih belum start. but thank you pm ashraf for the A. :) i will work my butt off for the part 2.

- i have conquered jalan genting! yarghh. saya sudah ada guts untuk drive back and forth to genting on my own. (tau. lembab.)

- nenek renovate her house. nenek dah tak sabar nak tgk cucu dia kawen. gulp!

- chef for a week! ibu outstation at kedah. asal masak, habis, masak habis. sukenyee!

- bawa ahmad for servicing. rasa sangat matang sudah boleh sign2 papers macam ada fixed monthly income. hehe.

ok toodles.

Idle

2010-12-15T22:19:00.004+08:00

Idle. Itu sahaja yang aku boleh buat sekarang. Menanti dengan harapan suatu yang tak kunjung tiba. Akhirnya aku dikecewakan dengan harapan tersebut. Tak apa lah, ini semua dugaan bak kata abah tadi. Perjuangan mesti diteruskan.

Teruskan hidup macam biasa. Selitkan unsur-unsur kerohanian dalam aktiviti harian. Tidak lupa juga makan, bersukan, tengok tv, surfing, dll.

Selamat berjaya aku ucapkan kepada diri sendiri. Mungkin rezeki aku dalam bidang lain pula kot.

Yang baik itu datang dari Allah, dan yang buruk itu datang dari kelemahan diri ini.

Hiburan

2010-12-04T21:28:00.001+08:00

sila klik gambar

31st

2010-11-28T23:39:00.003+08:00

Selamat menyambut bulan yg ke-31 dalam hubungan kita.

Semoga jodoh kita sehingga ke akhir hayat serta berjaya di dalam kehidupan yang kita tempuhi.

Selamat Berjaya juga untuk Peperiksaan Akhir nanti.

Buat yang terbaik ye!!! =)

it's not really a quarter after one, but i need you now.

2010-11-23T22:31:00.005+08:00

im depresssssssss.

you always tell me to eat. "makan tau." sekarang asyik fikir makan je, mandi fikir makan, exam tadi pun fikir makan. kalau tak makan je saya jadi takut. "apasal tak makan?". saya lupa.

sem lepas boleh la nak lupa, ada orang sound tiap- tiap kali. "apasal tak makan?". lupa. siap- siap jumpa kat bawah. duduk je. semua terhidang depan mata. "macam mana boleh lupe?". tadi buat kerja tak perasan dah petang. tak rasa lapar pun.

you picked me up from exam."macam mana paper tadi?". sucks. i want ice cream!. "ok jom!"

i organized my time, what time should i eat, study, sleep. supaya tak lupa pesanan. so you wont get mad at me. because we are 4 hours drive apart. :(

how do you expect me not to be mad at you, when everything around me reminds me of you?

i hate it when i have to eat nasi ayam cili by myself. it was our cheap meal remember? we ordered extra pedas, sampai hingus meleleh and laugh at each other of how silly we looked.

i hate it when i make fun out of myself, and im the only one laughing. :( you always laugh the loudest when it comes to making fun of me.

i extra hate it when this is my first exam paper without you. you always picked me up from exams. walaupun jalan kaki. if my paper sucks, we go eat cendol. and we will compare which batch is the toughest, mine or yours.

how do you expect me not to be mad at you, when everything around me reminds me of you? :(

Komuter

2010-11-16T11:53:00.002+08:00

Semalam kali pertama aku naik komuter selepas satu peristiwa hitam yang terjadi kira-kira 4-5 bulan lepas. Tak payah la diceritakan peristiwa hitam tu, buat sakit hati je.

Semenjak komuter memperkenalkan koc wanita ni, aku tak pernah naik lagi komuter. Masuk dalam koc, cari tempat baik punye. Baru je aku duduk, tiba-tiba ada makcik sorang ni bising-bising marah mamat seorang yang duduk depan dia. "Ni koc wanita, lelaki takleh dok sini. Keluar!. Keluar!." Aku pun tengok aje la makcik tu marah mamat tu. Aku nampak mamat tu dah menggelabah ambil beg dia. Sekali aku terpandang sticker KOC WANITA. Pergh. Silap masuk koc ni. Patut la aku tengok takde lelaki pun dalam koc ni. Aku pun follow ar mamat tadi pi koc sebelah.

Angin jugak dengan makcik tadi. Kalau nak suruh kitorang blah pon, takleh bagitau elok-elok sikit ke. Ingat kitorang ni saje-saje ke masuk koc tu. Mane la nak perasan sticker tu malam-malam. Makcik tu harap je duduk dalam KOC WANITA. Bahasa macam haram jugak. Ikutkan hati mau je aku sound makcik tu. Aku siap terpikir nak sindir guna peribahasa lagi. Haram jadah tol. Buat sakit hati je.

Nasib baik aku tak ingat muka makcik tu. Kalau tak ko memang jadi target aku ar lain kali. Huh

2010-11-14T10:35:00.000+08:00

image: tumblr

bits of childhood.

2010-11-14T10:20:00.003+08:00

i had always left the part with colorful sprinkles for last.
like saving the best for last.
i remembered when i was seven, while eating a dunkin doughnut.
a person asked ayah,

now doughnuts are just like mcdonalds.
nothing special, you dont get excited over it anymore.

i still prefer dunkin, you know.
everything else is just too over the top.
you can't have too much of a good thing.
especially on doughnut.

great, im being dramatic,
over a doughnut.

Learning to breathe & When the sun goes down

2010-11-10T22:28:00.003+08:00

1. Put your music library on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.

4. Ok, go!

5. When you're done, tag 20 people in this note, and make sure to tag the person who sent you this. The answer to #20 is the Title of your note

Miss Ika-Hijau
Pessa-Biru

1.If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say

I want to know what love is (Mariah Carey)
Set on fire (king of leons)

2. How would you describe yourself?

Don’t Trust Me (3 oh! 3)
Sunday Morning (Maroon 5)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

Lover Boy (Mika)
Man in the Box (Alice in Chain)

4. How do you feel today?

kamu (nitrus)
Feel Good Inc (Gorillaz)

5. What is your life’s purpose?

Dreams (the corrs)
The Bends (Radiohead)

6. What's your motto?

Slow dancing in a Burning Room (John Mayer)
Biar Berjauhan (Kapilla)

7. What do your friends think of you?

La Di Da (Jet)
Feel Like Tonight (Daughtry)

8. What do you think of your parents?

One More Time (Daft Punk)
On a Day Like Today (keane)

9. What do you think about very often?

Gravity (John Mayer)
Skew (Butterfingers)

10. What is 2 + 2?

Single Ladies (Beyonce)
Misery (Good Charlotte)

11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?

Viva Forever (Spice Girls)
Smile like you mean it (The Killers)

12. What do you think of the person you like?

Radio (The Corrs)
My blur baby (The Fridays)

13. What is your life story?

Chasing Cars (Snow Patrol)
Apabila (Kaer)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Out of my head (bep)
Lutsinar (Joanna & Co)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Wonderful Tonight (Eric Clapton)
Glory and Meaning (Seven Collar Tshirt)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Only Hope (Mandy Moore)
That will never conquer (Coldplay)

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Superwoman (Alicia Keys)
Kamu Aku Satu (Iris Band)

18. What is your biggest fear?

Shake it (Metro Station)
Untitled Breakaway (MadHouse)

19. What is your biggest secret?

These Streets (Paolo Nutini)
Fall For You (Secondhand Serenade)

20. What will you post this as?

Learning to breathe (Switchfoot)
When the sun goes down (Arctic Monkeys)

can you tell?

2010-11-01T21:09:00.001+08:00

aimishyu...

come here quick!

Hobi

2010-10-29T12:07:00.006+08:00

Hari ni aku semasa aku mengemas dekstop, terjumpa gambar-gambar lama. Aku suka snap gambar pemandangan, tapi mungkin la tak selawa orang-orang yang betul-betul berbakat dalam bidang ni. Lagi pon aku bukannya ada SLR pun, guna kamera handset je. Tapi minat tu dah hilang sekarang.

Aku ni bukan jenis yang minat sesuatu benda untuk jangka masa yang lama. Gitar kat rumah pun kadang-kadang je aku petik. Bila dah petik ntah ape-ape bunyi yang keluar. Sekadar melepaskan keinginan untuk bermain je. Sekarang ni, aku tengah gila main PES. Mungkin sehari dua lagi aku akan bosan dengan game tu.

Kene cari benda lain pulak untuk dijadikan hiburan untuk masa lapang. Al-maklum la, kawe ngah jadi penganggur sekarang.Sedih2...

Lupa tahun bila aku snap gambar ni, baru lepas hujan

OTW to Bandar Tenggara, about 6.30 pm

saje kasi effect kuning melampau

Happy 30 monthsary

2010-10-28T23:03:00.001+08:00

To my beloved girl, wishing u

HAPPY 30 MONTHSARY

semoga sihat selalu dan berada di bawah jagaan-Nya. Amin =)

Anjing

2010-10-26T00:30:00.002+08:00

Suwei betul tidur petang ni. Boleh mimpi kene kejar anjing pulak. Ape jenis mimpi daa. Masa pick up adik aku dari sekolah tadi pun nyaris-nyaris nak kene kejar dengan anjing. Kenapa la anjing-anjing ni selalu menyusahkan aku. Ishh

Maaf

2010-10-24T04:49:00.004+08:00

I'll give you all the love i want in return
But half a love is all i feel, sweet darling
It's too bad, it's just too sad
You don't want me no more
But i'm gonna change your mind
Some way, somehow
-Massive Attack: I want you

"Men are taught to apologize for their weaknesses, women for their strengths."
Lois Wyse

"When you realize you've made a mistake, make amends immediately.
It's easier to eat crow while it's still warm."
Dan Heist

For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness.
~Author Unknown

p/s: saya sayangkan awak...maaf untuk segalanya

screams

2010-10-22T00:03:00.004+08:00

on wednesday i had a presentation in the morning with Dr. Rasol, and later that night a presentation with Dr. Salleh. I think i did pretty good in the morning, Dr. Rasol (from India, dont understand Malay at all), nodded a few times and said good through out my explanation. But at night, i didnt do well, i was already at the peak of my energy and i cant focus. i prepared a text i can refer to in case i go blank. in front of 100+ students. and a Dr. who speak very fluent British English. i sucked. and i wanted to cry. i mean i can do better, i was just sooo tired, i only slept 3 hours the other night.

the next day, i had my Design presentation. unlike last year, i finished all the drawing. templates drawings of parts and assembly are pretty messy i tot i should clear them out first, i even had extra time to do animation with SolidWork (yay! i know how to do animation on Solid Work), and prepare slide for my group. i already did the circuit soldering, the other guys was supposed to build the prototype. we did it, Dr Badrul was impressed we even managed to finish it, its a bloody working prototype! he said good. yay.

i've been pushing myself this week, i need fun input. i tot of a movie and mcd tomorrow. its been very long since i did fun stuff. last time i watched a movie was in early august and so was eating out. hari2 makan nasi bungkus. haihh. classmates already celebrated the freedom of group projects earlier today. i was too tired to join them. i thought i could just sleep it off, but reading my friends status, eating kfc, bowling, tengok wayang. i feel like i need those fun input also. because right now, im so stressed out and i want a beach vacation!

p/s: maybe i should go back to jb. im comfortable there. psm, can u finish up yourself?

Sepi

2010-10-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

Aku pandang sekeliling hari ini
namun hanya objek pegun yang menemaniku

Aku putar memori ke hari semalam
kelihatan kau tersenyum padaku

Aku cuba menggapai tanganmu
namun hanya meja kaku yang menggalas tanganku

Aku cuba senyum padamu
namun hanya almari bisu yang terlihat di depanku

Aku cuba bermadah cinta
namun hanya kedengaran bunyi kipas sedang melepaskan keluhannya

Sesungguhnya perpisahan sebentar ini merundung perasaan sayu
Bagaimana aku harus menjalani hari-hari yang mendatang

Aku buntu, namun
Aku rindu dan
Aku sayang padamu

~sekadar luahan~

hurry up saturday!

2010-10-08T17:43:00.003+08:00

in less than 15 hours, my boyfie is going to be around. im so happy, i think i glow-ed. a classmate ask me "ika, asal nampak berseri ari ni?". i know the question is so wrong in so many ways. im not married- yet. yay! taksabarnakjumpepessayay!

we just met two weeks ago, he had his DL ceremony. but i was so down that he didn't even ask how i was doing. excitement meeting his friends i suppose. this time around, HE'S MINE. i will only lend my boyfie for futsal with his friends. lepas tu pulang balik! i have so much to tell him, so much to gossip, so much nak mengadu, so much nak berlagak. haha. after all, he's my walking diary. i talked to him everyday, and he made sure i sleep in a good mood. i NEED my good mood back. let's make a list so i wont forget.

sila tayang RC boat NO. 1 kat tasik. lepas tu buat muka puas dan bangga. you-darling-gf-design-and-build-this-arent-you-proud face. lepas tu tunjuk gamba hamper yang tinggi tu.
pour out every problem and cry your heart out. lepas tu dengan suara sedih, mintak coolblog. sekarang jugak.
mengadu pasal orang yang cari pasal, and make sure boyfie said, "nak kena pukul budak tu!". dia tak pukul pun takpe, dengar niat tu pun dah puas. haha.
tell boyfie the pain is back. make him promise to come down to bp every two weeks.
baju baru! he promised!
my double choc amos. yumm!
practice presentation depan boyfie. make sure he claps and cheers.
tell boyfriend "i love you" every half an hour.

ok dah. taknak banyak- banyak. nanti orang cakap banyak demand pulak. haha

Majlis Anugerah 'D'

2010-10-07T00:27:00.007+08:00

Gambar-gambar yang aku rembat dari facebook orang semasa majlis anugerah yang berlangsung rabu lepas.

p/s: Thanx Miss Ika for your help during my visit to BP =)

random colorful post

2010-10-04T20:53:00.012+08:00

okay, awal sem dah berazam nak cerita semua perihal dan aktiviti kolej dalam blog ni, tapi masa tak mengizinkan. bila masa dah ade, mood pulak tak ada, pasal cerita- cerita basi kolej belum di recordkan. i think i'll do it briefly la! sila tengok gamba random by random cameras! wehooo!

photo 1: design class trip to zull design, rawang. they make gadgets! awesome.
photo 2: my baby, darling RC boat we made and won first place! extra marks! yay!
photo 3: bbq celebrating our hard work for RC boat race and also iftar together. saya la yang bakar ayam tu, heeee
photo 4: ajk2 bakar ayam. berminyak2 muka. hehe
photo 5: 1st raya at segamat with cousin, ayah bought my kain raya all the way from china :)
photo 6: 3rd raya at shah alam with cousins. i love them to bits.
photo 7: eip dengan dayah datang ambil jubah konvo, they took me out jalan- jalan.
photo 8: konvoi raya from rumah bad, rumah bai, rumah wak and muar, rumah koden. this photo was taken at rumah wak at sarang buaya. such a lovely house.
photo 9: class raya photo i managed to screw up, i forgot to set the camera. hehe overexpose.

okayh! two months in 1 post! hehe.

thanks for scrolling up and down. saya memang sengaja.

coz you're amazing,

2010-10-04T20:41:00.001+08:00

and when you smile,
the whole world stops,
and stares for a while

pause + prt sc + copy + paste
can't get this song outta my head. too sweet!

2010-10-01T22:03:00.004+08:00

im gonna make you feel like you're in heaven on earth,
im gonna thank your mother for giving you birth,
im gonna wanna hold you in arms when you cry,
if that's ok with you

i dont know if i should cry
i dont know if i should laugh over this
i barely know what's clearly now

i cant stand being alone
now
images going through my head

i cant tell
now
things won't go as i want it to be
or i just don't want to

mouth won't speak
tears won't fall

stop being so super
stop being so tough

no stars tonight to count,
or my eyes are just to blurry

hearts i have to keep
but who will keep mine safe?

Wait for me...

2010-10-01T15:33:00.001+08:00

Minggu depan aku akan ke Batu Pahat. Can't wait to see Miss Ika!!! =)

daily dosage of happiness.

2010-09-28T09:32:00.000+08:00

gimme some!

you.

2010-09-26T22:51:00.004+08:00

i know when you are down,
ambil wudhu'
read the Quran.

what if i tell you that i am so depressed
that i had a vision of me on a freeway going 140km/h
and i just let go?

what do you do to keep things on track?
what do you do to make things in control?

how do you talk to a person who won't listens?

have you wished that you could stop time for a moment,
you make up for lost times,
you fix things that long need fixing,
you put things where they belong,
and when you think you've done your job
you can put the world back on its time?

*screams*

hello.

2010-09-23T21:29:00.003+08:00

to my lovelies. wherever and whoever you are.

2010-09-08T22:21:00.006+08:00

click to enlarge. sorry i dont know how to fit the photo in the post column.

iftar in KL

2010-09-07T20:48:00.004+08:00

i met pesa as soon as i reached selangor from bp. after dropping off bella, bf took me to ampang to a hill where i could see the whole KL from there. the view was breath taking. then we met up with the family and had iftar together. it was pretty stressful just deciding where to break fast and find seats. it was so obvious you can see it on our faces. haha.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2010-09-05T01:01:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

serta

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

ditujukan kepada semua rakan-rakan yang mengenali saya dan Miss Ika

p/s: Terima kasih kerana sudi berbuka bersama-sama Miss Ika, ianya akan sentiasa diingati selalu di hati ini... =)

Transformasi

2010-08-31T15:14:00.002+08:00

Antara ketiga-tiga gambar ni, mana yang paling elok?Hahaha

p/s: Selamat Menyambut Kemerdekaan Tanah Melayu yang ke-53

'Lepak'ing

2010-08-27T11:52:00.010+08:00

Hari sabtu lepas aku melepak bersama-sama fan ARSENAL di Ampang. Plan kitorang nak lepak di Old Town tapi takde skrin besar pulak. So, kitorang decide lepak kat mamak tepi ampang point je. Sekali-sekala jadi 'humble' dengan melepak kat mamak tak memberi masalah pada kami. Haha.

Kutuk-mengutuk member banyak diselang-selikan semasa game. Tu tak masuk lagi kutuk bengang kat mamak yang saje block view. Ingat kitorang datang nak tengok perot depa ka?Dah mintak ais kosong 3 kali baru sampai ke meja benda tu. Lain kali sumpah kami tak mau jadi 'humble', baik lepak kat tempat mahal-mahal je. Baru ade class, lagipun servis pun sama lembap dengan mamak.

Dh minum-minum sampai 0130am, budak-budak ni mau shisha pulak. Memandangkan mamak tu tiada shisha, terpaksa la kitorang tuka port. Menuju ke The Castle. Sampai sana terkejut gila, ramai nak mampus orang. Ye la, malam minggu kan. Parking kereta punye la jauh, kalau jalan kaki mau habis 1 puzzle sudoku level extreme. Tapi nasib aku baik malam tu, ade transport servis dari kereta ke kedai. Kalau tak memang exercise la aku malam tu. Haha

Aku, arip dan labi minum Barbican sahaja. 'Kimsun' bukan nama sebenar pulak order kopi ape ntah dan shisha berperisa 'GRENADE' + nenas. Rasa dia memang perghhhh, sukar nak gambarkan. Memang tak sedap langsung! Dah la tak sedap, tersedak aku hisap benda ni. Tak cukup dengan tersedak, batuk dan pening tahap gaban datang menyusul lepas tu. Memang budak-budak ni pun mengalami masalah yang sama dengan aku. Semua surrender, menyesal order perisa ni.

Perisa GRENADEni memang telah menewaskan kami semua. Pulang la kami ke rumah dengan perasaan hampa, sambil diiringi dengan rintik-rintik hujan yang semakin menggila seolah-olah mentertawakan kami. Sampai rumah aku tidur sebab pening tahap gaban, tapi sahur mesti bangun punye sebab dok kat rumah ni makan best... Hehe

Barbican

Kopi perisa apa ntah-saiz extra small cawan dia

Masing-masing dh biol

Arip control macho, padahal nak terbatuk

Labi version naga habis gas

p/s: Arsenal menang 6-0 ke atas Blackpool pada malam itu.

"In Arsene We Trust"

half of my heart

2010-08-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

dont say a word just come over and lie here with me,
because im just about to set fire to everything i see,
i want you so bad, i'll go back on the things i believe,
there i just said it,
im scared to forget about me.

do i know my boyfriend? pfft. duh.

2010-08-19T22:24:00.004+08:00

1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
Astro SuperSports in HD, National Geographics, CSI, House.

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
Bf tak makan salad. perut melayu makan ulam. but he eats anything anyway. thousand island.

3. What's one food he doesn't like?
this is hard. dia tolak batu dengan kayu ja.

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
teh o beng.

5. Where did he go to high school?
SMKA Tangok and KUSESS

6. What size shoe does he wear?
10 or 11.

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
he's not much of a collector. but he keeps everything that reminds him of me. aww. like seashells, and weird pretty stuff i easily get excited over. haha

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
he eats any kind of sandwich also. but recently he loved subway's chicken teriyaki.

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
Nasi berlauk. Berperut melayu.

10. What is his favorite cereal?
Koko Crunch!

11. What would he never wear?
a tutu? haha.

12. What is his favorite sports team?
ah. easy, the gunners. since forever.

13. Who did he vote for?
Nik Aziz la for sure.

14. Who is his best friend?
afif, pokjak, me? haha

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
Trying so hard to do things on my own, stubborn, trying to be independent when i know i couldnt. he gets frustrated everytime i turn into supergirl mode. urgh, me and my ego.

16. What is his heritage?
Kelantanese. :)

17. What is his favorite colour?
Black. Blue. Green.

18. What is his habit?
Gelak tak henti, menyakat, membahan, menyanyi, always wanting to try things, senyum dari jauh, asyik betulkan rambut bila nampak reflection of himself lepas tu tanya "ok tak rambut?", habis makan sebelum gf, pantang dicabar.

19. What is he proud of?
reverse parking because i still cant do that, of how fast he got good in sudoku than me, air hockey (if he wins la.), oh and me. :)

20. Lastly, do you think he will read this?
Absolutely. he was waiting for me to finish up. haha.

anyone with bf are welcome to do this. :)

i'm yours

2010-08-14T10:14:00.000+08:00

source: cardboardlove

Ramadhan al-Mubarak

2010-08-10T19:03:00.002+08:00

Selamat berpuasa kepada semua rakan-rakan.

Tingkatkan ibadat masing-masing.

Selamat bertarawikh, bersahur, dan berbuka. Semoga amalan kita di bulan Ramadhan ini diberkati dan diterima-Nya. Amin.

p/s: kepada Miss Ika, hadapi bulan Ramadhan ini dengan tenang. Saya sentiasa bersama Ika. =)

typical facebook

2010-08-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

orang itu orang. you cant change that. just sit and watch.

image: tumblr

Akhirnya hilang juga 'P'

2010-08-08T03:58:00.005+08:00

Hari ni bukan main seronok lagi Miss Ika, akhirnya boleh cabut juga sticket 'P' yang ada kat kereta. Tahniah sayang. =)

Drive carefully, jangan speeding, dan selalu aware dengan keadaan sekeliling masa drive. =)

"Pandu Cermat, Jiwa Selamat"

suka- suka

2010-08-07T16:10:00.003+08:00

click on the image to enlarge.

canon 400D
photoshop CS4

untuk boipren kesayangan.

a very, very quick update.

2010-08-04T09:10:00.003+08:00

semester yang sangat busy, cakap kena laju, jalan kena laju, type pun kena la laju.

design 2 seharusnya continue projek design 1, tapi dr badrul reject semua previous projects and we have to come out with new 'greeny' design.
design 2 = sketching, full drawing by solidwork, working prototype, mechanics analysis, and exhibition. gila?
dr badrul masih nak mengasah skill design kami dengan tambah program yang akan diusahakan kami sendiri; MMR10 which is we have to build a remote-control boat (all on our own) dan manage event race tersebut. formal.
bladi hell depa semua lantik wa jadi SU. dengan dr badrul sekali nak wa. pegi depan wa declare semua putus kawan, depa gelak ingat wa melawak. semalam buat minit meeting kedua je tiga page. aku benci jadi seksiteri.
semenjak jd SU, hidup dikelilingi paperwork, not meeting, minute meeting, surat jemputan VIP, surat tajaan.
bila rebah dalam dunia realiti, sakit belakang, sakit tengkuk, sakit kepala tiba- tiba datang.
PSM; bagaimana compressed air akan pusingkan tayar kereta? and at the same time kite boleh control speed dia?
design: to improve or to make something new. tak terbayang la macam mana payahnya nak cari references.
patutnya announce awal- awal, final year nak relax je, hirup saat- saat akhir jadi degree student. ni betimbun kerja tolak kat orang.
bila banyak fokus kat benda penting, bende kecil tapi penting jadi remeh. macam makan. kereta pun dah kelabu 3 minggu tak basuh.
minda tiada isian yang fun.
tengok kilang evergreen dari bilik rasa macam nak pegi bom je.
kalau kepala ika transparent sekarang, dah macam files berterabur kat desktop, semua terkeluar dari folder.
tolonglah jangan tambah bebanan lain, dah cukup dah ni. take it easy.

just breathe

2010-08-02T18:01:00.001+08:00

brain food

2010-08-02T00:29:00.001+08:00

awesome.

why i will miss and not miss bus rides to classes

2010-07-25T22:53:00.003+08:00

i dont need to wake up really early so that i can get the earliest bus which is usually less packed.
i dont have to wait 20 minutes for the bus to fill up with people, only then the bus will move.
i dont have to spend 20 minutes chit chatting with pakcik bas and listen to his family tree while waiting for the bus to fill up.
i dont have to worry to bring thick books to classes and drop them in front of everyone in bus.
i dont have to worry about what to wear if i missed the bus later and have to walk back to hostel. baju kurung is so unappropriate. langkah tak boleh besar- besar.
i will no longer have to set my playlist every week. it took 3 to 4 songs in bus to reach class. dengan kereta, satu lagu pun tak sempat habis.
i will no longer meet my classmates on bus and get fashion 411 on what im wearing.
thank god i dont have to curse the people yang dah la lambat, jalan pakai heels, kebaya belah, pakcik bas tunggu sampai diorang naik, berjalan nak naik bas pun slow motion, and its 5 minutes till class starts.
bus smelled like cologne/perfume shop everyday. it was suffocating. no wonder guys dont take bus rides anymore.
i dont have to wait like-- forever at the bus stop, just because pakcik bas thinks its too hot to pick up students from class.
i dont have to walk for 15 minutes in disappoinment. and whine to ayah. and get the feeling of bombing each bus i see.
i will no longer see myself in kebaya. no flat tummy, kaki besaq macam kayu balak.
i will no longer get the chance to sit next to juniors. boys. (seniors dont take bus rides anymore)
i will no longer be mistaken as a freshie. hmm
i dont have to stand when every seat is taken. and i dont have to show everyone my ability to balance myself under great inertia.
i have to eat a lot, since i was doing a lot of walking, a lot of money was spent.
i will no longer get tan! yay!
i will no longer get to wonder out through bus's windows. which i love to do. it gives you time to think.
i will no longer get the once-over look, the head to toe look. its freaky. and scary.
i will no longer feeling bad about sleeping too much because driving is less tiring than walking.
i dont have to stuck eating campus food, i get to eat outside.
i dont have to wait till weekend to get top up.
i dont have to walk 15 minutes just to reach ATM machines. and another 15 minutes back to hostel to get food.
i dont have to say 'campus life sucks' everyday. now on special occasions only.
my shoes wont have dirts on them.
i will not be sweating by the time i reach class.
i can go to the library anytime i want now.
i can eat nasi paprik every time i want to.
i have to worry about fuel, money, and car's condition everytime.

that's all i can think of right now. i definitely miss bus rides. hmmphh :)

an intelligent movie.

2010-07-19T20:00:00.003+08:00

well.. it sounded intelligent. so i might as well watch it, so i can feel all intelligent too. haha. i love ellen page in 'smart people'. i love it that she talks in metaphors, and get you dizzy and feeling stupid. bet she's doing it again in 'inception'. haha. gosh, i have to get this to do list done before any fun plans.

p/s: selamat pengantin baru sajidah and eizaz! the intelligent couple! just last sunday me and the girls were reminiscing the good old days, i remembered; eizaz! ko gelakkan aku pakai basikal roda 4 masa semua orang dah pandai kayuh roda 2! you were mean! oh well, he prolly forgot all about it~

30 fakta tentang aku.

2010-07-17T12:02:00.003+08:00

Aku seorang yang malas.
Aku suka melengah-lengahkan pekerjaan.
Aku suka senyum semasa bersendirian semenjak kenal dengan Miss Ika.
Tiada orang yang pernah kata aku hensem selain dari Miss Ika . Haha.
Aku suka berambut panjang tapi dalam masa yang masa aku rimas.
Sekarang ini aku bangun pagi dan tidur awal, lalu membuatkan Miss Ika cakap aku ni orang tua.
Aku suka dengar lagu Butterfingers.
Aku ada seorang awek yang funny, dia selalu membuat aku ketawa.
Aku bersekolah di asrama sejak dari Tingkatan 1, jadi tiada istilah homesick bagi aku sekarang ini.
Maksud nama aku ialah penyelesaian, namun aku sukar menyelesaikan sesuatu masalah.
Aku suka lihat pokok yang warnanya kehijauan untuk mencari mood sebelum study.
Dulu aku suka menumbuk benda-benda yang berada di sekeliling jika aku bengang.
Kaki aku bersaiz 9 atau 10 dan kadang-kadang sukar untuk mencari kasut yang bersaiz ini.
Semasa Tingkatan 1 dan 2, aku terikut dengan budaya hip hop. Aku selalu memakai seluar baggy jika keluar ke bandar.
Aku selalu mengumpul majalah Ujang, Revolution semasa berada di Tingkatan 1 hingga 3.
Aku pernah bermain skate. Sekarang skateboard itu dijadikan sebagai alas pasu bunga.
Aku pernah didenda berdiri selama 2 jam kerana tidak tahu berapa nilai 1 inci dalam unit centimeter(cm).
Aku seorang yang pemalu dengan perempuan dari sekolah rendah hinggalah ke Tingkatan 5.
Aku pernah lari dari tadika dan singgah di rumah orang yang tidak dikenali kerana hujan lebat ketika melarikan diri dari tadika.
Sekarang ini aku tidak suka mendengar lagu-lagu dari seberang.
Aku mudah lupa.
Aku tidak suka kucing.
Aku pening kalau membaca di dalam kereta.
Aku suka lihat wajah Miss Ika kerana ia menenangkan aku.
Aku suka menyakat Miss Ika semasa dia merajuk. Pasti dia akan ketawa dan tidak dapat merajuk lagi.
Aku seorang yang pasif dengan orang yang tak dikenali.
Aku tidak suka tengok perempuan yang tak reti make-up tapi nak make-up jugak. Jadilah mereka macam badut.
Aku suka minum milo ais. Nikmat.....
Miss Ika ialah cinta pertama aku. Terima kasih kerana menerima saya yang tiada apa-apa ini.
Aku sentiasa rindu pada Miss Ika, lebih-lebih lagi pada masa sekarang.

tagged by Miss Ika. thanks for tagging ! ♥

pembuka tirai sesi 2010/2011

2010-07-15T19:37:00.007+08:00

dear mr boyfriend soon to be soulmate,

i've been meaning to write this to you, this post have been drafted for 4 days now, sorry for the slow update. life's been good, i couldn't ask for more. i guess it has been a bit out of my expectation. meeting pm ashraf has put an ease on my headache, i hope the psm will turn out fine. the loan's problem is being settle, i still need to get few signatures. a staff told me that's the problem with the system, they never update! i figured he was right, PTPTN still owe me a semester of contract, at least. i hope they get the numbers right, i dont want to pay more than what im getting. however, im short on cash, i've been using my psp money (again.). century bila agaknya dapat beli psp ni?

my roomies and i are getting along. thank god all of them are my age. i have no freaking idea how to mix around with juniors. you know how i get with my sisters, im like the youngest though im the oldest! anyways, eip dayah and jena are going to further masters here! december intake! how exciting is that? diorang cakap, "alaaa, nanti ika habis kitorang kene tinggal pulak". haha.

oh! and just the another night, i was chatting with ibu. imagine that! ibu dah pandai chatting! kat facebook haha, lepas tu dia tanya macam mana nak tukar profile photo. haha! and she's been changing photo every five minutes since then. ibu cakap nanti nak belanja makan sebab tolong angkat barang. eleh padahal angkat tiga kotak je, yang lain ika yang buat. huh.

im thinking of furthering my studies too. i got intrigued of the idea that you're going to do your masters. i've talked this over with ibu and she told me to look around for scholarships first instead of loans, and ayah was okay with it too, he kept telling me the pre-requisite to be a lecturer. how much cgpa is needed, the skills, yadaa, yadaa. im still not liking the idea to teach, didn't he realised that? haha.

and the best thing is, ira was listed for NS! poor girl! the very first in the family to get listed. she called the other day to tell me. we all had a big laugh. (im sure you are laughing too when you are reading this.) im gonna grab something to eat, writing requires a lot of energy! bye!

missing you oppa!

p/s: wishin' and hopin'; ani difranco. listen to that!

p/p/s: enclosed is a picture of my friends and i after concurrent class.

life's unpredictable

2010-07-02T15:41:00.003+08:00

sometimes when your hopes are high, life gets you down,
sometimes when you wanted something so much, you're just not meant to have it.
sometimes when you wish you were happier, and it didn't happen.

dont give up.
i believe He has prepared something else, something even better for me, for us. InsyaAllah.

hope some more. it keeps you going.

30 things you hate/love about me.

2010-06-30T13:45:00.000+08:00

im a morning person. seriously.
i put my family first over anything. life taught me that.
i used to listen to westlife. oh wait, i still do.
i've stopped complaining over my body. i love me. i realized complaining doesn't solve problem. learning to be grateful.
weird things. and cheap.
i was put in an incubator the minute i was born.
i have undergone 2 surgeries. i think.
when i was 10, ayah bought me a bmx while other girls got barbies. it ended with blood all over my shirt, and lower left arm got another elbow. and 8 stitches. the bike was ruined.
im fond of red. but ayah thinks its a bad color for cars, when its not ferrari or lambo.
sejak bercinta lagi sekali ni, selera saya bertambah. dan bertambah.
i hate being alone. but sometimes i need my space.
my friends told me i wave hi/goodbye weirdly. they find it amusing.
i dream of a beach wedding
i love, love john mayer.
i named my car ahmad.
senang jadi tension
i laugh hard
i like star wars
i like drummers.
banyak berfikir negatif dari positif. maka jadi panik selalu.
i sometimes like to keep things to myself.
i love pretty lights. i love my luke's lightsaber.
i easily fall for sweet things.
ibu said, when i was still a baby, the only way to put me to sleep was car rides. ayah did it every night. i wasted ayah's scholar's money, and things dont come cheap in uk.
my parents think im aneh too. they find it hard to get me birthday gifts. it always ended with mugs.
a week before pmr, i handed my handphone to ibu, i said it was a distraction. adik thought an old woman was possesing me.
by the time im in matriculation, i was like an only child, i always get what i wanted. i was spoiled. adik thought i was possesed by a little spoil brat.
im afraid to go through surgery in my sleep, im afraid to die in coma and unprepared.
i believe i am socially inactive. i dont know how to start conversations or meet new people. im always comfortable to old ones.
i dont know what would i've become without ibu. ibu has always been there for me. ibu mostly helped me in making friends and keeping them. ibu always make the first step for me, she started things for me, and only then i'll take control and finish them.

tagged by dyana. thanks for tagging babe! ♥

321st post

2010-06-29T03:17:00.003+08:00

123 sayang. :)
happy anniversary and thank you for working hard. im THE lucky girl.

Happy 26-monthsary!!!

2010-06-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

To Miss Ika, saya ucapkan selamat menyambut bulan yang ke-26 bagi hubungan kita.
Semoga hubungan ini kekal sehingga ke jinjang pelamin dan seterusnya hingga ke akhir hayat kita. Amin =)

Saya Sayang Awak... =)

p/s: maaf jika gambar di atas tidak dapat dilihat dengan jelas bagi sesiapa yang rabun warna. Harap maklum~

Little walk

2010-06-27T03:39:00.003+08:00

Minggu ni aku keluar dengan Miss Ika. Seronok dapat jumpa dia, rasa macam dah lama sangat tak jumpa. =)

Antara gambar yang sempat aku rakamkan menggunakan hp cikai aku.

Banyaknye Miss Ika saya makan. Sampai 2 air die.hehe

muka serius sebab tengah lapar. haha

SIRIM Rasa

2010-06-27T03:06:00.006+08:00

Hari khamis lepas aku mengikuti lawatan ke SIRIM Rasa, di Rawang. Boleh tahan jauh ke dalam gak tempat tu. Memang buat taik mata je masa atas bas. Sampai di sana, aku tengok boleh tahan gak lawa bangunan kat situ tapi aku pelik tengok kereta staff tak berapa nak ada. Ye la, berapa kerat la sangat yang nak kerja kat tempat pedalaman camtu.Haha.

Mula-mula kitorang melawat ke lab foundri. Tapi aku tengok ejaan lab tu Faundri. Aku tak tau mana satu yang betul. Biarkan aje lah. Lab tu boleh kata semua ada la, dari cold chamber, hot chamber, automated casting, die casting, sand casting dan keluarga casting yang lain-lain. Malas aku nak elaborate, buang tenaga nak menaip je.

Lepas tu, kami melawat ke lab machining plak. Lab machining ni tak banyak sangat mesin kat situ. Kebanyakannya semua mesin dari keluarga CNC. Tapi aku tertarik pada satu mesin CNC milling ni. Dia punya saiz gedabak punya besar. Aku rasa kagum gak dengan saiz mesin tu dan tool yang ade kat mesin tu rasanya adalah dalam 50 lebih. Takpun lagi lebih dari tu, takde masa aku nak kira. Buat pening je.

Lawatan kami tu boleh kata agak sekejap jugak la. Dalam sejam je kot. Pastu kami terus balik ke HQ dan makan. Lepas tu balik umah. Kira kerja separuh hari je, tak rasa macam kerja pun. Yang penting sekali, aku happy!

cold chamber

mesin CNC milling yang bersaiz monster

Tool untuk CNC bersaiz monster

baru dapat internet.

2010-06-22T17:28:00.005+08:00

hurm. takde beza nya ade internet ke tak, kitorg pun asyik keluar je. jalan kat shah alam tu dah kenal dah. kalau nak ke genting sorang- sorang pun ibu bagi, sebab dah familiar dah. haha. ok, indoor semua dah habis main, lepas ni simpan duit nak habiskan semua rides yang outdoor pulak. next time, nak bawak kawan- kawan yang kepingin tu, ibu pun bagi je guna apartmen dia. tapi tak ada time la pulak.

tak ada benda nak recap pun minggu ni, malas nak mengingat sebenarnya. cuma ramai dah kawan yang dah dan akan mendirikan rumah tangga. julai ni ada dua, zaid dan sajidah & eizaz. zaid punya macam tak boleh pergi. sorry zaid, sebab ade kat selangor. macam jauh pulak nak turun johor. dengan kesempitan wang lagi. insyaAllah sajidah&eizaz punya boleh sebab masa tu dah dekat batu pahat, dekat la sikit nak turun jb. plus, dengarnya ramai ex-sktsp datang. boleh la ber reunion. hee :)

bila sebut pasal wedding, mula la fikirkan kewangan. yang perempuan boleh la rilek lagi, yang lelaki, haish bebanan sungguh. minggu, minggu lepas, lepak minum- minum dengan sepupu yang dah bekerja dekat warung. belum kahwin lagi dia, kononnya nak menghabiskan hutang ptptn dulu. dah 5 tahun kerja, tak habis- habis bayar lagi. berpuluhan ribu. tapi tak sebanyak engineering la, pasal dia ambil accountacy. dalam hati aku bersyukur, hutang aku nanti masih dalam 4 figure je. padahal hampir memberontak tu rasa duit tak cukup. aku pun fikir nak habiskan hutang dulu baru kahwin. haha. boleh ke?

disebabkan bulan ni ramai orang kahwin, otak ni pun tercetus impian- impian nak kahwin jugak, i now declare this month as the loving month. boleh?

Internship

2010-06-16T23:18:00.004+08:00

Hari ni merupakan hari yang memeningkan minda aku dengan la kerja yang dibuat tak berjalan lancar, ditambah lagi dengan perasaan gundah gulana akibat sakit perut. Kemungkinan esok pagi aku akan sakit perot lagi sebab hari ni banyak menguyah kerepek. Ah!

Selama sebulan aku intern ni, ni lah baru kali pertama aku terniat nak bercerita tentang internship aku. Itu pun atas kerelaan hati sendiri. Hehe. Terpaksa cerita sedikit tentang benda yang Private & Confidential ni. Hahaha.

Aku sekarang tergolong dalam golongan UT-man. Adakah anda tahu apakah itu UT-man? UT-man ialah seorang lelaki gagah perkasa yang ditugaskan untuk membuat kerja-kerja Non-Destructive Testing (NDT) tidak kira di atas darat, kawasan berhawa dingin mahupun di dalam air.

UT atau nama panjangnya adalah Ultrasonic Testing. Benda alah guna mesin. Harga sebijik mesin boleh beli sebiji MyVi. Caghe gila! Ni mainan anak-anak orang kaya je dan berilmiah macam aku. Hahahaha.

Ni ada paparan gambar mesin yang harganya tidak sepadan dengan rupa mesin tersebut.

Bila tengok gambar mesin ni, terus hilang mood nak menulis dan aku rasa macam nak jadi UT-man je sekarang...

the Oranje

2010-06-16T22:58:00.004+08:00

Untuk World Cup kali ini, aku menyokong pasukan Oranje iaitu Belanda. Aku harap depa ley menang world cup kerana mereka mempunyai skuad yg hebat-hebat seperti van Persie, van Der Vart, Sneijder, Kuyt dan ramai lagi. Aku pasti mereka pasti berjaya!

OVERWINNING!!!

holiday update.

2010-06-16T16:43:00.003+08:00

nothing much has been done through out the holidays. lemme do the recap.

- 1st week of holidays was a lazy week. i only eat and sleep.
- help sisters study for the mid term.
- gossip girl and glee marathon.
- baby sit arief on the 2nd week while paksu and maksu were away in korea.
- makngah and the family were on umrah on the 2nd week, so it was a dull week.
- had few wins with the play station with arief. he dont want to play with me anymore. 'adik taknak main dengan kakak ika lagi, kakak ika dah terer' were his exact word.
- so he only wants to play with pessa, pessa dropped by mostly every evening. kalau pessa lambat, arief tanya 'kakak ika, pesa datang pukul berapa?'
- we see each other almost every week, sometimes just the two of us, but most of the times with the family.
- i finally had the chance to meet pesa's childhood bestfriend. kecoh tak hingat!
- i did ibu's work and preparing slides for her class. and was paid.
- i also did a favor in checking thesis for ayah. and was paid also.
- i spent most of the money on food, bills, and leisure.
- went to watch a movie with cousins until late and ate nasi lemak at 1 am.
- weddings.
- ahmad has been upgraded. weehooo!
- we seldom talk on the phone nowadays, pessa always tired from work. atok selalu tanya, 'ko gaduh dengan faisal ye?' so cute. haha
- we are thinking to settling whether in damansara or gombak.
- still packing. you cannot imagine how much stuff there is. pfff.

a rare encounter

2010-06-15T21:40:00.003+08:00

last few days i was in genting for the school holidays. while waiting for ibu to pick us up at the skyways, an arab lady came and sat next to me while waiting for his husband. her husband then came to her and spoke to her, it sounded important. (macam la paham, haha)

arab lady: are you going to kuala lumpurr?

me: nope, i live around here.

arab lady: oo, sorry (speaks arabic to her husband. husband went out and looked for the bus again.)

arab lady: it's nice to live here.

me: (realized she wants to continue with the conversation.) umm, yeah. the weather is nice compared to Kuala Lumpur. where are you staying in Kuala Lumpur?

arab lady: times squarre. (semua yang ade R bunyi double)

ok. i didn't know times square got hotel.

me: how long have you been here?

arab lady: umm, 6 days.

me: on your honeymoon?

arab lady: kind of. we've been married for two months. now only have the time. my husband just finished his study.

me: ooo.

arab lady: i was told malaysian people are really friendly and nice.

me: heh. you think so?

arab lady: i guess so. (haha)

me: so, where did your husband studied?

arab lady: australia, sydney.

me: his major was?

arab lady: computer system ( i hope i heard right). i studied too but then i dropped halfway and got married. are you still schooling?

me: yep. i'm still studying in a local uni.

arab lady: what major are you in?

me: err, engineering.. mechanical.

arab lady: engineering? a girl? really? how are you doing?

me: (saw that one coming.) im doing ok. mine me asking how old are you?

arab lady: im 21.

me: really? you're younger than i am. im 23.

arab lady: really? you look 18 to me. haha.

me: haha. i'll take that as a compliment. thanks. umm, soo... was it okay when you both were far apart?

arab lady: of course it was hard. it's a whole other continent, you know.

me: yep, i know. so, how do you see each other? did he fly home often?

arab lady: you mean before the marriage? no, no! its not allowed. its forbidden to see each other like that. (dating)

husband came. she introduced us. i found out his husband is the same age as i am. their bus came, her husband grab her by the hand. firm.

arab lady : salam alaikum. i'll be seeing you.

i just managed a wave. she turned around.

arab lady: oops, sorry! i wont be seeing you!

me: haha!

i feel that the rare encounter was somewhat interesting, to discover a whole new culture. or to me; a lesson to be learned.

may the force be with you

2010-06-14T13:03:00.000+08:00

Teka-Teki

2010-06-10T22:34:00.001+08:00

Cuba teka ini gambar ape??

Gerak Hati

2010-06-06T00:49:00.002+08:00

Azlan & The Typewriter
Gerak Hati

Dalam hidup ku ini
Puas ku tunggu
Sesuatu yang ingin ku milikinya

Aku pendamkan semuanya
Kau tekan emosi di fikiran aku menyambut tuduhan
Aku hanya mampu bernyanyi
Mimpi-mimpi terang itu
Membuat aku terus berlari

Andainya langkah kaki aku terhenti
Akhir semua pengakhiran melodi ini

Aku pendamkan semuanya
Kau tekan emosi di fikiran aku menyambut tuduhan
Aku hanya mampu bernyanyi
Mimpi-mimpi terang itu
Membuat aku terus berlari

Aku hanya mampu bernyanyi
Mimpi-mimpi terang itu
Membuat aku terus berlari

Aku hanya mampu bernyanyi
Mimpi-mimpi terang itu
Membuat aku terus berlari

shoot em.

2010-06-04T10:08:00.000+08:00

have a lil faith in me.

2010-06-03T10:45:00.002+08:00

tak tahu la takat mana gilanya ambil psm bawah design. tapi tiap kali cerita kat orang, tu la bende pertama yang keluar dari mulut dorang. cuak tu cuak jugak, tapi dah minatnya kat situ. i dont want to waste a year of doing something i dont have interest in. belum pernah orang dapat A buat design ni, kata orang la. staf pun ada yang cakap macam tuh. membuak la cuaknya dah la psm ni portion besar dalam course 4 tahun ni, mm.. tapi tak berapa sangat. agaknya dah masuk tahun 4 ni pemikiran tu jadi matang sikit. apa yang orang- orang yang dah lama makan garam engineering cakap tu kita terima, dah tak protes diam- diam macam selalu. go for the knowledge not the A's.

semester lepas aku sedar semua tuh, aish.. benda yang kita belajar tahun 1 dan tahun 2 tu interesting sebenarnya, apsal la aku belajar membuta- tuli je. aku jarang dah nak ke bilik lecturer buat tayang muka untuk better grades, the feeling is not right even if i got an A. semester lepas, kalau aku nak tidur, aku tidur je dalam kelas, malas nak fikir consequences nya, haha. better late than never. tahun ni, aku nak absorb mana yang aku mampu.

pesa pernah skor A dalam satu paper. dalam kelas tu pulak, dia seorang je yang dapat A. dia jumpa lecturer nak cakap terima kasih, lecturer tu plak tak sangka dia bagi A kat pesa. hmm, aku fikir, kalau pesa boleh buat aku pun boleh. in my own way, InshaAllah. i want to leave my degree life with something that i can be proud of.

sama jugalah psm ni, kalau aku tak dapat A pun macam yang orang lain dah predict, aku redha je. aku sedar risiko dia, panel- panel dia bukan calang- calang orang, import indon belaka, memang kerja condemn orang je. tapi curiosity aku nak tahu ape end result psm aku ni membuak-buak. Dr. Badrul pun cakap benda ni baru lagi. dah dua tahun tajuk ini dikeluarkan, tapi takde orang lagi berani ambil. apehal tah tangan ini ringan sangat angkat tangan hari tuh. hmm, sat lagi nak pi tengok kereta- kereta remote control, nak kasi bukak itu dalam. prof pun tengah fikir nak kecik kan skop aku. aku belum cerita lagi dengan ayah. last time aku cerita, dapat jugak sebijik GILA dari dia. dia kata ferrari buat enjin pun satu team, ni nak buat enjin baru, sorang-sorang pulak tu, gila ape? itu pasal aku belum boleh tidur lena lagi, takut aku betul- betul jadi gila. haha.

i will...

2010-05-26T00:26:00.001+08:00

.... work my butt off for you so that you can finally see i deserve you and you deserve me.

tired.

2010-05-20T15:32:00.000+08:00

beyond tired.

sanctuary.

2010-05-12T20:00:00.003+08:00

it has been a while since i've been here. finally a good coffee. i feel like i'm in the 20's. the music, the wooden flooring, the ambiance, the atmosphere. a place to escape. a place to actually think. a place to read without being distracted. its kinda like the library only better- they serve coffee. uh, donuts! very fat donuts.

how starbucks can do better:

hi- speed wifi that actually works. wth facebook still loading?
play john mayer songs.
put cushions and soft carpets on the floor for people to chill.
put some bright colors like-- red. on the wall.
ok, that's all i can think rite now.

i hope, i wish, i pray hard that the new uni library will have starbucks. library is my second favourite place after beaches.

anyways, i'm in johor. yay! i've got to see the doctor. i love hospital's choc cakes. they dont taste healthy at all. yummeh. ok bye. i need to go to the toilet. pronto!

my kakaks.

2010-05-11T12:48:00.000+08:00

saya anak sulung. but im not good at being one. immature. orang yang baru kenal pun selalu bagi reaksi macam ni "laaaa! anak sulung ke?". kalau nak dibandingkan dengan adik saya yang bongsu tu, erm, dia lagi berfikiran matang dan waras. notes ni ditujukan buat kakak- kakak saya yang terlampau ramainya. doa saya dimakbulkan, sebab saya tak suke jadi anak sulung.kalau boleh nak jadi anak no.2. hehe. gedik saya mengalahkan anak bongsu.

terima kasih atas nasihat, bulian, kasih sayang, tazkirah2 malam pertama (yang rasenye belum masanya saya tahu tp dah ter tahu), buatkan drawing, ajarkan statik, blanje makan,kejutkan subuh, angkatkan baju, kemaskan bilik, bawak jenjalan, bawak pegi klinik, suapkan ubat, jerit2 kt toilet suh siap mandi cepat sket.sejak ika dari tahun1 and sekarang ika pulak kene jadi kakak (tak suka! tak suka!)

minta maaf ika tak sempat dan tak kesampaian nak ke majlis perkahwinan korang yang dh terlepas2 tuh, insyaAllah yang akan dtg ika cube datang. terima kasih sebab ingatkan ika lagi. baby shower pun jemput ok hehe. i love you and miss you all my kakaks.

kak zara, kak huda,kak zura, kak bai, kak ju, kak shida, kak nida, kak watie, kak fuzah,kak mas, kak zati, kak awin, kak jie, kak ama, dan sume kakak yang ika terlupe sowieeeee..

from nad.

2010-05-10T23:15:00.002+08:00

thank nad for both of the awards. and finally a reason to update! haha

Rules to accept the award:

1. Thank & link the person who gave u the award..

2. Pass this award onto 15 bloggers you've recently discovered & think are fantastic

3. Contact said blogs let them know they've won the award

4. State 7 things about yourself

1. done.
2. 15? urm, whoever is reading this, this award is for you too :)
3. i cant do that.
4. there are still 7 things im not sure about myself.

spread the love!

Home

2010-05-08T20:56:00.001+08:00

Selamat tinggal Parit Raja. Tempat yang membuatkan aku terasa senang. Teringatkan air buahnya. Pergh. Sekarang juga aku rasa nak minum air buah. =,=

Good Luck

2010-05-01T05:00:00.001+08:00

Kesian saya tengok Miss Ika batuk, selsema dan demam dalam 2-3 hari ini. Moga-moga awak cepat sembuh k. Saya doakan awak. and Good Luck for your final paper. Dont Give Up Sayang!

A.P.I - Pelita (P A D U ! ! !)

2010-04-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

hins.

2010-04-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

whatever you tell people about me behind my back just proven that you are insecure. because im not the one talking bad about you. i dont do that kind of stuff. that is just low. telling off bad things to people so that they would ignore me and you will get all the attention. please la dude, you are not making things worse for me, buat aku gelak ade la. you are so desperate for attention, obviously.

yeah i made mistakes, so? and you dont? at least i learned from it. i live a happy life for my wise choices now. aku tak paham la, the route im taking is wrong ke? and you path is right ke? tak semua orang will lead a life you do. Tuhan uji hamba dia dengan macam- macam cara.

and what is it with you asyik suruh orang kenang budi. from what i learned since i was a kid, dah buat baik jangan diungkit, tak ikhlas namanya tu.

and dont judge me, annoying seh. you dont know what my life is like. whatever it is, i forgive you. and it is up to you to forgive me or not, or you may go on and be hypocrite for what i care, at least im at ease and you dont.

*istigfar

Albi Nadak - Fares

2010-04-23T01:11:00.001+08:00

Albi Nadak-fares

Hanya padamu...
Diri ini hanya milikmu
Datanglah dekat
Air mataku mengalir
Mengharapkan mu

Hanya padamu...
Dan jiwaku padamu
Wahai kasihku usia kita,usiaku
Seluruh hidupku untukmu

Cintamu adalah hayatku
Dirimu buat kita bercinta sebenar2 cinta
Hatiku disini, keindahanmu millikku
Jadi bersatu

Hatiku memanggil
Harapkan engkau sentiasa kekal
Hanya dirimu
Selepas bertahun lihatlah sayang
Kita berjumpa di sini dan bersama
Airmataku mengalir keranamu
Engkaulah kekasih, hidupku hanya untukmu
Seluruh hidupku, usiaku..
Kerna matamu, aku serahkan segalanya

Apa yang daku harapkan
Indahnya kau disisi bersamaku selamanya
Katakanlah kepadaku..
Diri ini..sekian lama mengharapkan
Hati ini, perasaan ini
Bersama hati dan perasaanmu

p/s: Ini adalah alih bahasa dari sebuah lagu arab. Boleh tahan jugak lirik lagu ni. Kehkehkeh

Final exam..

2010-04-18T22:37:00.001+08:00

Exam week sudah tiba. Sudah lama rasanya tidak meng'update' blog ni. Semuanya gara-gara Final Year Project. Alhamdulillah, semuanya sudah selesai, tinggal untuk final editing bagi thesis sahaja.

Esok petang aku ade paper, wish me luck.

To Miss Ika, i am wishing you good luck in your final exam. Gambate!!!!

500 days of summer

2010-04-12T10:59:00.002+08:00

earcandy: there's a light that never goes out; the smiths

and you are worth every drop of love ♥ :)

Selamat2

2010-04-10T16:29:00.001+08:00

Ada orang tu pergi KL hari ni. Selamat bergumbira di sana ya! =)

23

2010-03-31T10:00:00.001+08:00

image: tumblr

home.

2010-03-29T10:06:00.002+08:00

i wanted to be home so much. i wanted to be surrounded by people who love me, by people i trust the most in life. especially at times like this.

yesterday ibu called just to tell me im getting old, haha. its funny ibu. especially when it came from you. but there were tears through out the conversation ibu.. :( i want to be in subang, with ibu, makngah and favourite cousin in the whole wide world. but ibu wont let me. "tak elok la ponteng kelas. nak final dah ni.."

ibu. lecturer cancel kan semua kelas hari isnin ni.

(my mind is thinking what kind of birthday celebration i've missed.)

wishing

2010-03-28T23:31:00.003+08:00

im still waiting for a trip so fantastic, something extraordinary to happen, to witness something beyond my imagination, something life-changing, something to sweep me off my feet, something worth everything.

image: google

Happy Birthday!

2010-03-27T04:10:00.001+08:00

To Miss Ika,

Saya ucapkan selamat hari jadi yang ke-23. Semoga panjang umur serta murah rezeki. Amin =)

a little update

2010-03-17T19:39:00.004+08:00

earcandy : i dont trust myself with loving you; John Mayer.

just a little update, i hope. yup, im not done with the registering since i havent paid up my school fees. sebelum ni takde pun masalah tu timbul. budak- budak ni kata sekarang sistem baru, status berhutang tak dibenarkan mendaftar. nak dijadikan cerita, aku yang beriya sekali dalam kelas nak daftar subjek, last- last aku yang last tak daftar- daftar lagi. anyhooo, aku dah ade supervisor, the first in class to get one. eheh. "saya cop encik ok?" sengih je en. azwir.

ye, dengan yakin nya saya ambil en azwir sebagai supervisor saya. kawan- kawan aku pun pening nak congratulate ke nak ucap takziah. ada yang kata gila. but this is what i want. and i hope i have made the right decision. jena cakap aku memang berani la ambil bawah design, orang lain kalau boleh tak nak, ko yang nak.

and i have another problem, somehow i got overdued library book i havent returned yet. masalahnya aku pun tak ingat bila aku pinjam, and i KNOW im not the kind to get things overdue. so, i went to meet some admin kat library. he jot down my number, matric no, and said to call me once he found out things. a week later, i went to see him again, i thought maybe he lost my number or forgot to call back or something, but he said he's busy and hadn't had the time to look to my problem. keluar je aku dari bilik dia, dia pakai headphone tengok cerita korea. busy huh? and now, its been a semester and i still havent heard from him.

so yesterday i went browsing on my SMAP account (its an account for uthm's students regarding bios, fees, registration etc). and guess what i found?

click to enlarge. malas nak zoom and cut

somehow i got a car registered in 2006. a ford laser, white. masa tu lesen pun belum ada. lepas tuh ahmad di register bawah motosikal. apekah? ahmad is a car! a macho one!

tak tahu la sem ni macam mana. dapat lecturer killer je. setiap minggu ade projek, setiap minggu tertidur atas lantai mozek sejuk rumah kawan. umi cakap dia paham perasaan aku, pasal dia masa diploma dapat lecturer yang sama. pergi kelas pulak macam dungu je, lecturer yang tak killer pulak tengok kitorang macam lifeless je rase nak bagi extra assignment. aku tak puas hati betul. boifren aku ok je sem- sem lepas. aku ni dah macam tak ada tenaga dah. tengok wayang pun dah tak sempat. berapa abad dah tak tengok. sabtu ahad je balas tidur. argh! ingat sabtu ni ibu nak datang, ahmad serupa dah macam tuan dia lelaki, kotor nak mampus. padahal aku sorang je yang pakai.

p/s: sabar tu separuh daripada iman. HINS!!! kolej takde air. (mencarut--)

p/p/s: panjang la pulak

Sekadar luahan rasa

2010-03-13T17:45:00.009+08:00

Biar hujan atau ribut melanda, aku tetap bersamamu

Rasa cinta padamu tidak akan pudar dari hatiku

Biar ke mana sahaja ku pergi, kau setia disampingku

Nilai sebuah hadiah itu tidak bergantung kepada kemewahannya

Titipan kasihmu membuatkan aku bahagia dan aku berharap kau juga bahagia disisiku

if u just realize, what i just realized.

2010-03-09T21:19:00.002+08:00

today was not my kind of day. i was--
not gonna tell! people thought im funny today, i was and am beyond embarrassed.
but it sure made me realize, im lost without you.
thank you. ♥

though i know im a sucker at most of the things,
but your presence said that i have made the right choice. for once. *tears*

i love you.

i really, really do.

the reveal

2010-02-13T17:59:00.012+08:00

it's been days since en faisal's birthday, and i think its fair enough that i reveal his birthday plans. friends have urged me for the photos and the ideas. they prolly love the idea of surprising boyfies. oh, i love surprises too!

ok, here goes.

sunday (2 days till birthday)
i wanted to get something he wants. so i frankly asked, and he wanted sports shoes. we went to a few sports stores and ended going out in vain. he didnt like the design, or they were out of stock. but back in my mind, i was actively planning for his birthday, but i was a little upset he didnt get what he wanted.

i sent him home early coz i had a crafty idea for his birthday, but i told him i got a test to study to. since he didnt get the shoes. i tot of making 'coupons' so he could redeem them later. :) then i made him a birthday card, a simple one but straight from the heart. eceyh. haha.

and then while browsing the net, i found this website where she made a cute note for her bf. (i cant remember the url add! sorry!) i loved the idea and used it, but made it more personally from me. i put on cute, romantic lyrics which resembles my love for him. it took me only 4 hours to finish them. roomies were so eager to see the end result. heee. i slept at around 2am and i have class at 8.

monday (1 day to birthday)
Alhamdulillah, lab session ended early today, went bfast at parit daun, fetched the girls and went birthday shopping to bpmall. and it was my first time driving to batu pahat without en faisal besides me. i wanted to get him a back pack but then i remembered him telling me, his wallet got holes in it. haha. so then a wallet it is! we went down to every brand possible and told the salesperson to take out anything that looks man enough. haha. because most of the wallets are so gay! then, down at polo haus, i spotted the ONE. before i could ask the salesgirl to pull it out from the display, the girls loved the same wallet. sangat macho! the texture, the smell. ok, tanpa membuang masa, BELI! *the grand surprise. checked.*

no. no. he is SO not going to get the wallet first, we have to pull his mood down before he gets excited. so i bought chips and chocs as his 'mock' presents. so that he will have the expression of "ni je?". but i know my bf will get excited at anything i did, so i bought a paper bag, and threw all the goodies inside. nak menunjukkan sangat malas dan tak ada masa nak membalut. haha.

by noon, we were all so excited for his birthday, that we each got our own party hats, party-blower-thingies, and confetti! (sangat love :) plus it works like a cannon. wehoehoeioh macam nak beli lagi main sorang-sorang)

rushed and drove like mad, a few hours till next class and we still havent bought the cake! we went back, got the cake at parit raja (i cant remember how to drive to secret recipe) and bought the cake, put it inside the fridge, and went to class.

ya rabbi, i forgot the print out pictures for the cute note and his wallet. class ended at 6, went to parit raja, print, eat, went back, solat, and to class again. (no time to shower). i was having a major headache at class, prolly because of the heat.

11pm, back from class, fetched the girls, drove back to get the cake and the present, texted his housemates, to make sure he's home by 12 midnight. and they helped me by distracting him from wondering where i've been to the whole day (i didnt have lunch and dinner with him).

tuesday (birthday!)
at twelve i texted birthday wish to him. by this time he prolly thought: that's it. heheh.

his housemate texted me, line baik. i drove to his house, we parked a few meters from his house. got ready. his housemate went out to get the grand suprise and hid it. we put on our party hats, party gadgets, and lid the candles. i texted him: keluar kejap. he went out and saw our hats and candles, i put on his party hat and we sang him the birthday song, and he blew out the candles.
and the confetti! (i should have aimed higher. haha) it was rather a touching moment, because this was his first ever birthday cake. and it was me who brought it. im honoured.

the expression i get was priceless.

he invited us inside his house, and his housemate wanted to sing to him again, so we lid the candles again, and he blew them off. again. haha. i gave him the birthday card and the goodie bag, instead of keeping them to himself, he shared a whole bunch with us. took a few pictures, wished him again and went back, because me and the girls got class at 8am.

he woke up at 11am and called me. he found the grand surprise on his desk. along with the cute note. i told his housemate to put them beside him while he was sleeping so that when he woke up, he would see them first, but his housemate was worried he would sleep on the surprise, he put them on his study desk, which will be the first spot he went when he wakes up. he was speechless on the phone, i could only hear sobbings. haha.

ok, that's it. i know i could've done better but time limits me. if only i dont have tests. hehe. so girls, good luck trying and i hope this have been very helpful. thanks for asking. :)

happy birthday sayang! XOXO

p/s: boyfie said the day i found the courage to drive back n forth without him, is already the best present. :)

here's a picture of us and our matching party hats :)

p/p/s: more pics and video in facebook. :)

Thanx For The Memories

2010-02-09T02:00:00.001+08:00

Thanx for the birthday suprise. Thanx to Pija, Faz, Bella and especially to Miss Ika. I have no other word to say. Sangat terharu. Thanx =)