2009 end of year summary

age : 22 but still feels like 21.

actual, formal date : none

crushes : 2

dean's list : none

star wars merchandise : 1

psp : none.

good deeds : few

weight gained : LOT

shoes bought : none

jeans : none

movies with love : 3 or 4.

lesbian kiss : none

car : score!

dancing like its nobody business : 1000

boyfriend : 1

hadapinya dengan senyuman. tak memasal

2009/2010

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p/s: maaf..Selamat datang 2010..Semoga ia membuka lembaran baru dalam hubungan kita

who said having your own car is a bliss?

im not complaining or anything, im grateful for what i've been given. more than i deserve actually. but sometimes, all the time actually, i panicked, i feel like vomitting-- which im not sure if it because of an illness or im just overwhelmed. my heartbeat is faster than usual, prolly due to the adrenaline rush and its making it hard for me the get a good night sleep. why you ask?

1. i cant concentrate in class, i keep asking myself whether i have pulled up the handbrake.
2. what if somebody accidentally scratch my car?
3. have i locked my car?
4. will i get to my room safely?
5. what if i drive to slow? will people behind me get mad?

i keep having these visions of me involve in car collision, i'll hurt, ayah will be mad. and then we ended up broke just to fix the bloody car. everytime i steer the wheel. seriously, i need help.


seriously, im not enjoying this i-have-my-own-car thing.