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home.

i wanted to be home so much. i wanted to be surrounded by people who love me, by people i trust the most in life. especially at times like this.

yesterday ibu called just to tell me im getting old, haha. its funny ibu. especially when it came from you. but there were tears through out the conversation ibu.. :( i want to be in subang, with ibu, makngah and favourite cousin in the whole wide world. but ibu wont let me. "tak elok la ponteng kelas. nak final dah ni.."

ibu. lecturer cancel kan semua kelas hari isnin ni.


(my mind is thinking what kind of birthday celebration i've missed.)

wishing

im still waiting for a trip so fantastic, something extraordinary to happen, to witness something beyond my imagination, something life-changing, something to sweep me off my feet, something worth everything.


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Happy Birthday!

To Miss Ika,

Saya ucapkan selamat hari jadi yang ke-23. Semoga panjang umur serta murah rezeki. Amin =)

a little update

earcandy : i dont trust myself with loving you; John Mayer.


just a little update, i hope. yup, im not done with the registering since i havent paid up my school fees. sebelum ni takde pun masalah tu timbul. budak- budak ni kata sekarang sistem baru, status berhutang tak dibenarkan mendaftar. nak dijadikan cerita, aku yang beriya sekali dalam kelas nak daftar subjek, last- last aku yang last tak daftar- daftar lagi. anyhooo, aku dah ade supervisor, the first in class to get one. eheh. "saya cop encik ok?" sengih je en. azwir.

ye, dengan yakin nya saya ambil en azwir sebagai supervisor saya. kawan- kawan aku pun pening nak congratulate ke nak ucap takziah. ada yang kata gila. but this is what i want. and i hope i have made the right decision. jena cakap aku memang berani la ambil bawah design, orang lain kalau boleh tak nak, ko yang nak.

and i have another problem, somehow i got overdued library book i havent returned yet. masalahnya aku pun tak ingat bila aku pinjam, and i KNOW im not the kind to get things overdue. so, i went to meet some admin kat library. he jot down my number, matric no, and said to call me once he found out things. a week later, i went to see him again, i thought maybe he lost my number or forgot to call back or something, but he said he's busy and hadn't had the time to look to my problem. keluar je aku dari bilik dia, dia pakai headphone tengok cerita korea. busy huh? and now, its been a semester and i still havent heard from him.

so yesterday i went browsing on my SMAP account (its an account for uthm's students regarding bios, fees, registration etc). and guess what i found?

click to enlarge. malas nak zoom and cut

somehow i got a car registered in 2006. a ford laser, white. masa tu lesen pun belum ada. lepas tuh ahmad di register bawah motosikal. apekah? ahmad is a car! a macho one!

tak tahu la sem ni macam mana. dapat lecturer killer je. setiap minggu ade projek, setiap minggu tertidur atas lantai mozek sejuk rumah kawan. umi cakap dia paham perasaan aku, pasal dia masa diploma dapat lecturer yang sama. pergi kelas pulak macam dungu je, lecturer yang tak killer pulak tengok kitorang macam lifeless je rase nak bagi extra assignment. aku tak puas hati betul. boifren aku ok je sem- sem lepas. aku ni dah macam tak ada tenaga dah. tengok wayang pun dah tak sempat. berapa abad dah tak tengok. sabtu ahad je balas tidur. argh! ingat sabtu ni ibu nak datang, ahmad serupa dah macam tuan dia lelaki, kotor nak mampus. padahal aku sorang je yang pakai.


p/s: sabar tu separuh daripada iman. HINS!!! kolej takde air. (mencarut--)

p/p/s: panjang la pulak

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if u just realize, what i just realized.

today was not my kind of day. i was--
not gonna tell! people thought im funny today, i was and am beyond embarrassed.
but it sure made me realize, im lost without you.
thank you. ♥

though i know im a sucker at most of the things,
but your presence said that i have made the right choice. for once. *tears*

i love you.




i really, really do.