exhausted.

masuk hari ni dah 4 hari ibu berkursus, leaving me in charge of house chores and babysit my two lovely but annoying sisters. up till today i realized i havent been doing a good job in 'replacing' ibu for 8 days. masak pun main belasah je dan ikut mood. memasak bukan satu skill yang ika boleh banggakan. but adik and ira have been supportive, ibu pun supportive juga dengan suruh masak. well, ayah is not the kind of guy with words. tapi membisu tu maknanye sedap kot! haha. ibu sekarang sibuk dengan kerja-kerja sekolah, tak sangka juga jadi cikgu sekolah adalah kerja yang berat. ika perasan juga kerja dengan government ni banyak paperwork. banyak sangat! ibu asyik occupied dengan kerja macam tuh. nak kata improvement terhadap education malaysia tu takde nampak sangat pun impak nya. universiti malaysia bukan dalam senarai 100 universiti di dunia. what's that? "cakap tak serupa bikin". pengajaran untuk diri, jangan kerja dengan government, kerja banyak, gaji sikit. haha!

anyway, ika cuma nak cakap, only now i've realized its not easy being a mom. a working mom. by the time ibu baca ni dia mesti cakap "tau pun." haha. works at school pilling up, never ending house chores, dealing with teenage daughters, husband yang mengada-ngada. and barely have time for yourself. just look at me for the past 4 days, im not yet married but already im feeling the tense of having a family. cleaning up the house, garbage, laundry, preparing meals and not to forget dealing with emotions. i appreciate moms all over the world! you guys are the real super woman! (happy tears). here's why:

1. ibu-ibu mengandung untuk 9 bulan, 24/7 bawa beban kat perut ke hulu hilir. 28 jam berperang dalam operation room untuk bersalin .
2. baru kemas rumah kejap, dah bersepah balik. husband balik office, stokin campak je tepi sofa. mainan kat stor yang baru kemas tadi pun dah dikeluarkan.
3. meals kena prepare on time, kena ingat pulak kesukaan lauk orang- orang dalam rumah. panggil lunch dengan muka happy dan semangat.
4. laundry. the hard part. baju sekolah memang kotor hari- hari. kene asingkan, kene rendam, kena sental, folding, ironing, organize almari baju masing-masing. "ma, mane stokin adik?". not to forget, mencari baju yang menghilang secara misteri.
5. work. dealing with bosses, datelines, peers. oh my god! the stress. dont you just want to set the office in fire??
6. husband (baby tua).
   
7. and you have to deal with teenagers. i once experienced my pre-teen years. and it was not easy. i felt like the whole world was against me. mothers have to lend their ears and listen to their precious baby's problem. not to mention omelan si suami tiap- tiap hari balik kerja. tapi mothers mengadu kat siapa? nenek?
8. when the chores wasnt enough, mothers have to deal with debts. bills, bills, taxes. rushing to make the payments in time.
9. fear of what the children will become in the future. cukup ke duet ni? betul ke didikan ni? jadi orang berguna ke nanti?
   
10. completely forget herself. berat dah bertambah, out of shape, muke dah berkedut, nak pergi spa, buat facial pun dah takde masa. trend baju semua out-of-date. hantar dan jemput anak dengan taekwondo nye la, soccer practice la, tuition la.
11. husband decide the love spark isnt there anymore. move to isteri no.2
12. doctor discover cancer has spreaded. husband busy dengan isteri no. 2, chores dan anak- anak kene fikir. cancer tolak tepi. jangan fikir.
    

okay. maybe i've watched too many movies. no 11, 12 tu melebih- lebih. hehe. but what im trying to say is we dont appreciate moms too often. we are too caught up with ourselves. but moms dont. it is always other people first then her. "the world does not revolves around you". i keep telling myself when i dont get what i wanted. "dan ada sebab kenape kita tak dapat ape yang kita nak. mungkin Dia nak kita berusaha lagi. mungkin juga selama ni kita lupa Dia, nak kita ingat2 kat Dia. Semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya". A lesson i learned from ibu. thanks ibu. =)



p/s: she's my super woman. :) moga dijauhkan ika dari no 11 dan 12 dan masalah2 lain dan dianugerahkan keluarga yang bahagia. amin. hehe. (still a long way to go la)


ini blog mak ngah saya dalam meniti hidup sebagai seorang isteri dan ibu. :) have a click!