Sehari sebelum Fattah berumur 7 tahun

Agak lama sebenarnya aku tak menulis di sini. Sudah beberapa tahun berlalu semenjak tulisan terakhir. Ahah

Hero sulung aku dan Miss Ika pun nak masuk 7 tahun dah. Hero kedua pun dah berumur 5 tahun.

Abi dan ummi nak ucap Selamat Hari Jadi yang ketujuh untuk Fattah. Abi dan ummi doakan Fattah jadi anak yang soleh, abang yang baik untuk Affan, dan khalifah yang berguna untuk umat Islam. Maafkan abi dan ummi sebab marah ye. Abi dan ummi marah sebab kami sayang Fattah. 😘

In sya Allah boleh la mula kembali penulisan di blog yang dah bersawang ni. Semoga dapat memberi manfaat kepada sesiapa yang membacanya 🙂

p/s: tak reti la nak upload gambar kat blogspot guna phone. Kemudian la tambah gambar Fattah lagi 😄

Seorang Affan Benyamin

Ya Allah, it has been a long time since I've been here. Fattah's all grown up (just reached 2 you over dramatic mama), and gave birth to another hero, Affan Benyamin. I'll tell you how we came out with the name.

Right now, I'm in NICU Hospital Shah Alam, accompanying Affan who is not well-prolonged jaundice and high fever of 38degrees. One of the nurses told me that number is quite serious for an infant. So ummi redha. Kita sama-sama sambung saki baki pantang kat sini. Hati sayu juga ingatkan kat Fattah, abi asyik cakap dia cari ummi. Waaa. Mana pernah berenggang dengan ummi kan.

Abi cakap ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni. Ummi dapat pantang dan fokus kat Affan je (ye betul, pantang dengan abg Fattah sangat penat). Ummi betul-betul need time out sebelum bertukar jadi lioness. Haha.

Hikmahnya hari ni ummi dapat tatap Affan lama-lama, comel juga anak ummi ni. Hihi. Cepat sembuh Affan (dan Ummi) sebab habis pantang, kita enjoy!

Kurus? Naturally

Assalamualaikum!

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Kalau nak kurus dan nak hilang ilusi perut maju ke depan tu, boleh la cuba set perut kempis ni. Set ni dah membantu ramai orang untuk kurus dan juga antara reason kenapa ramai join jadi entrepreneur Hai-O. Apa yang bestnya dua benda alah ni?

Mineral Coffee dulu eh?
Kopi mix ni bukan sahaja sihat malah berkhasiat. Selain aroma kopinya yang wangi menusuk kalbu, kalau bancuh kat office ni boleh mengundang kemarahan akibat tidak share haha, malahan kopi ini mendatangkan banyak benefit kepada peminumnya. Sebabnya dalam Mineral Coffee ini ada Garam Buluh. Apa bagus sangat Garam Buluh tu?

Garam Buluh kalau ikut kata orang-orang Cina untuk panjang umur. Haha. Atau dalam erti kata lain sihat sampai tua la. Tengok je la kat hospital, yang banyak warded orang tua kene diabetes, sakit kidney semua majoritinya orang cina ke melayu? Jawab sendiri ye.

Garam Buluh ini bersifat alkali, jadi ia akan bantu neutralize acid berlebihan dalam perut terutamanya ketika lapar.That's way consumer yang ambil mineral coffee masa breakfast kenyang sampai tengah hari. Elok juga, tak mengunyah je kat office, bagi perut rehat, minda fokus pada kerja. At the same time, dah tak makan tu boleh la kurus!

Kenapa tak telan je garam buluh? Lagi senang nak kurus? huishh, garam buluh ni kalau bau tak boleh nak telan dek tekak. Sebab tu dicampurkan dengan kopi, supaya mudah diterima tekak.

Satu lagi yang saya suka pasal Mineral Coffee ni ialah ianya juga adalah source of energy dan proven milkbooster untuk saya. Selalunya lepas saya direct feeding mesti pump dapat sikit je. Tapi sejak consume Mineral Coffee saya dah boleh buat stock. Stay-at-home pun boleh buat stock! Rare ni! hehe. Husband pun belikan saya deep freezer untuk simpan stock susu Fattah, Alhamdulillah, mudahan dapat susukan Fattah sampai umur 2 tahun.

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Assalamualaikum!

Maaf lama menghilang, tak ada laptop at the moment, sekali bila dapat wahhh seronoknya menaip! hahah.

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Betul, bila kita dah cuba, baru senang nak share.

Hmm, biasala kan sejak jadi mak-mak ni memang tak sempat nak melawa, letak foundation ke apa ke, tudung pun pakai tudung sarung je. Masa lepas pantang tu memang nampak tua la, dengan eyebagnya, dengan badan out of shape nya.

Masa bujang dulu patutnya dah start consume dah untuk prepare body, sebab semakin meningkat usia, semakin menyusut kolagen yang ada dalam badan kita. hmm, mesti pelik kan? eh kolagen ada dalam badan? Ada, kat mata, kulit, joints, rambut dan organs. Kita ni ladies, go through birth, kerja lagi, kemas rumah lagi, lagi cepat la badan dan kulit kita tua sebelum usia. Tengok kesan kekurangan kolagen kat gambar bawah ni. Gulp!

Ika dah masuk kotak ketiga dah amalkan BBPlus, Alhamdulillah, kesannya positif. Jerawat kecil kat dahi dah tak naik- naik, sakit joints kat belakang lutut dan tulang belakang sejak pantang dah hilang, kulit wajah pun dah tak nampak kusam. Ni nak share gambar masa dalam kotak pertama BBPlus lagi. No filter or edit ok? Hehe.

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Sebenarnya, kebaikan BBPlus ni beyond kecantikkan sahaja. Tapi biasa la kita hidup dalam dunia selebriti, materialistik. Kecantikkan tu lebih penting dari kesihatan. Hehe. Joking! Tapi betul la, siapa tak nak cantik kan? Suka bila dipuji, 'Wahh, anak 3 pun nampak macam darjah 6!' Suka kan? 

Cara nak consume pulak mudah je. Bancuh 1 sachet BBPlus dengan 150ML air masak. Bertuahkan ummi guna cawan Fattah. Hehe. Ni masa awal- awal tak reti agak 150ml, lepas tu senang dah agak airnya. Consume best before hitting the sack, sebelum tidur ye! Rasa sedap macam ribena, sehingga menjilat tepian bibir. Hahah.

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okay, until next time! As-Salam! Be good to one another!

nothing beats

Your hair all over the place. You eat while you pump out your breast and feeding him.

You starting to calculate time to cook and clean up all the food he throws on the floor. He's throwing tantrum and refuses any toys offered.

Oh, and you have not showered yet.

But nothing beats the look on his face at night when he is asleep, all tired from playing (torturing) with ummi. The face that just keep you calm and cant wait to see him in the morning.

Happy belated mother's day to me. 😘

life comes from me part 2

You chose this life/path.

That's what i've been getting since i have fattah. Is it wrong to say what's in my head? It's not everyday. Most weekdays it will only be me and fattah. On weekends i'll be putting on my happy-housewife face cause i'll be meeting my in laws or my parents. Can i get to talk to adults now?

I know it sounds like i'm whining but no want seems to understands what i have sacrificed, its a major turn around for me. From getting salary, getting out of the house, driving to being a mom. I dont get to go out like i used to. With fattah crying, making me feel like i'm a bad mother.

It just like nothing i do is good enough. I stayed at home, so i should get things done more. But i didn't because taking care of a baby took most of my time. I didnt even have enough time to do what i wanted to do-with ALL this free time people think i have now.

You know what? I have to calculate how many minutes i take for shower and brushing my teeth every morning.

I decided i'll stop talking about my baby blues, or blurt it. Whatever. When they have their own kids one day, they'll know.

I love my baby, my new life, so what if it doesnt go according to plan. Its my plan, my life. I just know there's something better for me. I just know. :)

life comes from me part 1

Okaaayyy fattah is asleep. Now it's time for me to solat, take my supplement and pump my breast to stimulate them to make more milk. I just HAVE to explain that. Haha. I've been thinking of reading before going to sleep since i still have loads from BBW, hubby strictly remind me to finish them before buying new books. Hmm, but i just got too tired from all day with fattah. Zzzz

Really. No kidding. Having a kid is mooooreee tiring than working. I know this because i used to have a job that is less- a bit less worse that an ER surgeon. Let me give you a low down.

My job start at 7.30am. Yes, you read it right, 7 frickin 30. The factory runs 24/7 so the engineers have to be on top of things. If we get in late few minutes, pay will be deducted. Factory world baby, each minute is like gold. No minute to waste. And i go back home at 7.30pm. We get to go back at 5.30pm, but we actually cant. Haha. Because mostly problem arises by 5.30pm. Hmm. Sometimes i go back home at 8pm. Everyday is like dat. Mostly at work, i dont usually sit at my desk, i went to production line, measure products, meetings, problem meetings, meeting clients, meeting supplier. Phew. That's why we all get free phones with paid bills. Easy to be dragged into problems. Sometimes i even forgot to pee, and when i do remember i almost cant hold it in.

Lunchtime was like heaven for us. The looong awaited break. We make full use of the 1 hour given. The only time we get to be sane. Then back to fighting fire- like my old boss always said.

When i get home, eat whatever i can, sometimes just drink milk, took a shower and sleep. We dont have cuti semester, cuti sekolah, cuti raya also have to negotiate. "who wants to save their leave and come back work early?" yelled my boss.

Sometimes, when you were sleeping at night, you get a phone call, "line down! Line down!" and you have to go the factory at 1am to settle the issue. Then at 7.30am you still have to clock in to work.

Few of my friends, first time mothers claimed "penat la jaga baby, lagi penat dari kerja". I feel you. Nothing beats my work schedule for the past 3 years than taking care of a baby. Go hug your mum or buy her something nice, because she has gone through with more than 1 baby. Kudos.

P/s: im typin while pumpin. Multitaskin'

Here's my baby. Photo-ed today.

back in business

It's not easy making the decision I've made a year ago. Letting go of my career, to raise my baby. To let go chunks of money at the end of the month. Resisting the urge to buy things, since i dont own a lot of money anymore. And most of all, letting go of my lifetime plan, my dreams.

Dont be so dramatic here, having a family and a baby of my own is one of the dream. Pfft. You know those other duniawi dreams they called, the IR, the Dr. Yang tak boleh bawak mati punya dreams. Haha.

But who am i to complain? I get to watch my baby grow up, give him his bath, tickle him, give him best, warm food, watch him reached his milestones, and best of all, i get to breastfeed him. Yerp, he gets it ALL FRESH FROM THE SOURCE. Haha.

This is my decision. I do get asked multiple times 'buat ape je tak keje ni?'. I just gave them a grin. You have no idea how occupied your time is when you are raising your baby on your own. Literally have to hold your pee. No kidding. I have less sleep then i did when i was working.

My cousin of 6 children (yes, 6) dropped her career as well when she had her baby. She told me that baby is a rezq from Allah swt. Just have faith, rezq will follow to those who are patient. She also told me the story of the owner of the fabolous mom, a franchise business all over malaysia? She quit her job too when she had her baby, and later she went around for interviews while carrying her baby. There are currently no jobs in malaysia that allows moms to bring their babies to work, so she decided to stop looking, hence you may now see baby store "fabolous mom" everywhere you go.

Simple. She's a human being, so am i. If she can do it, so can i. I have decided to raise my kid(s). And i will do it! May Allah swt ease my journey!

So lets start small. I started by joining #projekSTG. It's an online business, perfect! I got to do my 'job' while looking after my baby!

If you want to know more or interested to help your family or just want a second income, whatsapp me, 0197772600. It's really easy and won't disturb your primary job. We will guide you. 😘

Kudos to all mommies, working or not, you are superheroes!

power pumping

cause that's what supermoms do.

delivering baby fattah pt 1

as promised, here are the details of how it went down.

Dah lama nak cerita penglaman bersalin kan fattah. So here goes.

I was at week 38, it was 13^th june 2014 on a Friday morning. We had an appointment with Dr. Noorfidak before the baby comes. Nothing out of ordinary that day, same thing. I feel heavy and fat. Oh and yesterday I don’t know, but I just have the urge to clean up our closet and iron few clothes. We reach pusrawi at 9.00am. it was my husband’s first pusrawi check-up with me. While we waited for our turn to see the doctor, I was invited to attend a talk on breastfeeding with the senior nurse. Did I mentioned that at week 38, I still havent got my go-to-hospital bag ready! Only the baby’s bag is in the trunk. Haha

Anyways, midway through the breastfeeding talk, I was called to Dr. Noorfidak. She scanned and by this time the baby weighs around 3.2kg, chubby and hairy baby. As I recalled Dr. noorfidak told us. Dia pun macam tekan2 kat rahim untuk rase baby position. Ok, dah locked down. Last month punya check up pun dia cakap mcm tu. Okayy. Cuak jugak. Then we discussed how to prepare for the day itself. Me, hubby and Dr Noorfidak. She explained, in two weeks (by week 40) kalau tak bersalin lagi dia nak admit kan la. Monitor baby and all. If takde tanda lagi then go back home datang week 41 and nak induce. Siap plan out guna calendar doctor bila nak datang for CTG, husband siap minta sabtu la, senang tak payah ambil cuti. (bini nak bersalin kot!)

Okay dah lepas jumpa Dr, buat payment bincang2 dengan husband nak buat final 4D. Boleh simpan buat kenangan gambar baby dalam perut. Dia kata ok, ade klinik dekat ampang boleh buat. Lepas tu kitorang pegi breakfast. at 12 noon. Just because tak sempat breakfast pagi tadi. Haha. Melantak siap simpan sikit kuih dalam handbag kot lapar lagi nanti. Then, we waited for Aisyah to pick us up. Konon nya dah alang2 kat KL, boleh la lepak kat KLCC while the husband pergi sembahyang Jumaat. Us girls pusing satu KLCC, mostly to baby shops, just to get the feeling. Tak membeli pun, cuci mata je. I fell in love with baby Ralph Lauren. Kedai je pun dah lavish. After the hubbies back from friday prayer, we had lunch in Nando's. and I didn't finish my meal. which is weird, i always finish all my meals. Perut dah penuh, baby dah besar, was my excuse. Husband packed it up for me so i can eat it at home. Then, aisyah and azzim treat us bijoux cupcakes. the cupcakes are so pretty i cant wait to it at home. in the living room. with both my feet up. haha.

okaaayyy, i have this issue with going to public toilets, especially when i'm pregnant, i refuse to seat on the toilet where everyone has put their butt on. so i hold my pee until we get to shah alam. (you have no idea, how much can a pregnant lady pee--a lot). then at 4pm, the couple send us back to Pusrawi so we all can go home. And they can pick up sumayyah from nursery. I had to go to the toilet as we reach Pusrawi, as i can't hold it anymore, plus i already felt like something has came out. I did my business and oh mak kau, i saw some dark brown mucus on my panty. Thanks to my readings, I knew my time has come. I was just now sure how fast. Dalam hati, not now, tak sempat 'servis' lagi bawah tu. hmm. 

Bagi tahu husband, dia suruh check dengan nurse Dr Fidak, since kita memang kat hospital pun. Nurse cakap dah tanda la tu, nak admit ke? Hospital swasta mengalukan anda admit awal, banyak belanja. hehe. But my husband insist on her to call my doctor. Dr. Fidak cakap lambat lagi maybe tomorrow or lusa baru deliver. Lambat lagi?? rasa macam cepat je esok or lusa tu, Dr suruh balik rumah relax and and jalan-jalan lagi. So baby cepat beranak. Kita pun lega, balik rumah dulu sambil makan kuih dalam kereta. nyum nyum.


to be continued...

missing confinement posts

haishhh.. i have posted two posts during my confinement month through an app in my phone.
But then kapoot!! no posts at all since 4th june! penat aku menaip. gigih tu nak menyimpan memory.
it's hard to find extra time to blog with baby on board now.

but issokay, things happened. i'll just start back from zero.

p/s: we really need to change this blog's name. too cheesy and so not matching with my new job-- a mom.
tee-hee!

I'm on vacation!

Well not really. Not working so i dont have holidays. Haha. I tagged along with ibu to PD! I have the room all to myself. Yay! I can be lazy! Haha. Check below out. Two beds, one for ibu, one for me. Hihi. But I'm missing my hubby already.. :-(

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week 37

adik pesan "tengah tak buat ape tu, blog la everyday. you no longer blog now." oh how i wish i have that kind of determination; blogging everyday. i'm just not attached to my gadgets anymore, not even my phone. kekadang battery habis pun buat tak tahu je. bila husband call tak dapat, baru la cari charger. i'm just attached to my pillow. haha.

not only that, after how many months i'm married? and about to give birth within this month? baru nak tengok gambar-gambar kahwin. haha. kesian kan? anyway, my baby is around 37 weeks today. and tomorrow until friday, i'm going to PD! follow ibu ade kursus (with husband's permission of course)

and i was thinking of getting another 4D image of baby F before i deliver. yay or nay?

anyway here are photos of us from our wedding, like bila lagi nak tunjuk kan? lepas ni penuh gambar baby je. haha. indulge!

Papapapapa

Tak lama lagi nak jadi bapak orang dah. Semoga dipermudahkan semuanya. Kepada isteri, semoga kita dapat jadi ibu bapa yang terbaik untuk anak kita ni...nervous woooooooooooo

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week 36

okayyhh.. dari baby 8 weeks old lepas tu terus skip pegi week 36. haha. sorry la, rutin harian tak memberi slot kekosongan untuk berblogging. or writing. ummi kene bangun pagi pukul 6 untuk bersiap pegi office. perempuan mengandung bergerak lebih perlahan dari kebiasaan, maka kena la extend masa bersiap. tambahan pula ummi duduk sensorang, everything i have to manage on my own you know. (please dont be naughty when you grow up).

lepas mandi and solat, ummi bersiap ala kadar je, tudung pin bawah. bedak pun tak ingin sapu and sapu cocoa butter pada perut yang membulat. turun ke bawah, ummi start enjin kereta. dalam masa enjin dipanaskan, ummi isi botol air besar ummi, minum madu yang dicampur air sedikit. grab sebiji kurma, ambil backpack kerja, and off to work! that's about 6.50 am. Ummi clock in work 7.30. Lambat sikit putung gaji. Tapi banyak kali dah masuk lambat, redha je potong gaji. Dah kite berjalan perlahan kan nak pegi clock in. Hehehe.

On the way pergi kerja, perut dah bunyi. Baby F pun sudah mula kick dengan rakusnye. Ummi pun sampai je office terus pegi breakfast dulu. Dalam pukul 8.00 am baru Ummi start work. Check email, ukur barang, cmm, vmm, pergi store, pergi ncm. Penuh la Ummi punye aktiviti, kekadang dah nak terkencing pukul 11.00 am baru Ummi pergi, lepas tu macam eh, dah nak lunch hour?

Lepas lunch hour, biasa Ummi duduk kat machine CMM. Mase lepas lunch ni kebiasaannye ramai yang datang dengan isu untuk diselesaikan. Boleh la burn off calories selepas makan. In between, ummi akan balik ke meja ummi untuk minum air. Production floor/lab tak boleh bawak makanan, maka ummi akan berulang alik bila kehausan, kekadang duduk sekejap makan cikedis orang offer. Mama bawak jugak kismis buat kunyah2, tapi ramai org tumpang port sekaki.

Bila pukul 5.30 je ummi akan start packing untuk balik. Sejak mengandung ni Ummi tak berani la nak balik malam2, dah takde orang tunggu kat rumah. bahaya untuk orang yang pergerakan dah limited ni. haha. tapi ada jugak bos ummi suruh stay back, itu pun kalau ade issue urgent or customer request. tapi kebiasaannye ummi akan cabut dulu sebelum disuruh stay back atau tak angkat call. haha.

Sampai je rumah kebiasaannye dah pukul 6.45, ummi baring kejap. Pasang lampu2, bukak tv kasi bising sikit rumah. Ummi naik atas mandi n solat maghrib. Lepas solat maghrib ummi dinner la, kekadang makan cereal je dengan susu. tu pun dah kenyang, nanti lewat sikit ummi minum air yogurt. ummi makan ubat2 doctor sebelum tidur. lepas solat isyak, biasa ummi dah tido dah, sebab dah tak larat. kepenatan. driving paling penat sebenarnye, lelagi kalau jam. ummi akan pusing2 badan dalam kereta sebab tak selesa. ada jugak rasa nak keluar kereta tgh jam tu,stretch sikit masuk balik driving. hahaha. biasa pukul 10.00 or 10.30 ummi dah tido. Syok nye tido atok Baby F dah pasangkan aircon. nanti pukul 3 and 5 pagi ummi bangun buang air. Asyik buang air je.

Tapi Ummi dah berenti kerja, ummi takut la baby f keluar awal, nnti takde kawan kat rumah, hehe.
Ok la, nanti sambung lagi. Sakit belakang duduk je ni. bye. Salam.

baby makes me ramble

Salam baby,

Today Umi received newsletter from BabyCenter saying you are just as big as a kidney bean (kacang merah). Tiny nya! Tapi kenapa Umi punya perut ke depan? Haha. Umi loves you more every waking day. Umi selalu cakap seorang-seorang dengan baby.

Hmm. Umi sebenarnya tak boleh concentrate work. Umi mabuk sangat harini, sejak dari semalam. Membayangkan nasi dengan sayur buat Umi nak muntah. It means that you are growing baby. Alhamdulillah. Umi sebenarnya takut sangat nak vomit kat office. Takut menyusahkan orang. Nanti Umi dah tak larat pun siapa nak pick up Umi from work? Abi kat KL. Umi doa hari-hari supaya Allah s.w.t beri Umi kekuatan untuk kumpul rezeki bagi baby. Kalau tak boleh settle pun kerja Umi, biarlah ade progress day by day.

Umi rasa macam nak balik, nak lay down kat bed kat rumah. Umi rase macam nak makan bubur dengan ikan bilis kicap dengan telur dadar hancur. Sedapnya, tapi baby macam tak cukup kan?

growing baby in ma tummy

Today Ahmad Ozil is 8weeks old. Umi is super dizzy, super nausea especially after asar till after maghrib. Umi keeps drinking water and eating biscuits, but it doesn’t help. Umi have trouble focusing on Umi’s work. Lots to be done… L

Why Ahmad Ozil? Entah la, Umi punya instinct rasa yang teman Umi hari-hari ni boy la. Sebab Umi jadi kuat, Umi takde la muntah-muntah teruk, mabuk- mabuk Umi pun boleh lagi Umi drive back and forth to work. Umi lapar pun Umi pegi je shopping sendiri. Abi cakap Umi supergirl dia. Hehe. Umi rase Ahmad Ozil bagi Umi pinjam strength dia bagi Umi. Nanti dah besar jadi hero Umi pula ye.

Maybe sebab rezqi Ahmad Ozil, Umi dapat panggilan interview. Mudah-mudahan rezqi sayang Umi ni juga Umi dapat. For you, baby. Lillahitaala.

Minggu ni Umi baca, Ahmad Ozil is developing fingers and toes. Alahai bergenang mata Umi. Tak sabar nak gigit-gigit jari mulus tu. Hehe. Kalau Umi diberi rezqi dapat la Umi dengar heartbeat sayang, hujung minggu ini. Can’t wait!

Umi is still torn between going to check you up at government or private. Actually, Umi has already started regular check up at private. 2 times now. But Umi’s friends keeps advising Umi to get a pink book at government facilities. And your Abi seems could not do the decision himself. Semua nak Umi yang fikir. Lagipun Abi is 4hours away from you, so it’s not easy for him to come down regularly and take Umi and you to the clinic.

Umi pun pening nak fikir, nak beranak kat mana la, nak pantang kat mana la. Rumah sendiri pun tak ada lagi nak raise Ahmad Ozil. Umi pun takde tempat yang Umi boleh jadi selesa. Hmm. Umi tak sabar nak do the shopping je. Haha. Baby help Umi do the thinking can? You just tell Umi what you want, then Umi will tell Abi. He will definitely give you anythingggg. Hehe.

Umi is going to lie down now. Super pening, jap lagi muntah.

p/s : Umi macam nak makan nasi putih daging merah dengan sup sayur la harini. Nak tak?

first post from a puan

"macam mana? semangat nak masuk kerja?"

i gave him a long no, with the face and all.

i always imagine myself hugging him after work, sulking and complaining about work.
then he'll said "jom makan ice cream".

but that gotta wait.

Ya Allah, I cant wait for what you have planned for us.
I hope they are gooooooooodd. :P Amin.

moodswings part 2

it is exactly 44days until our nikah day. I'm having mix feelings.

1, headache from the debts i need to pay. *calculating how many OT i can do to support the wedding*.
2, relieved. finally kebenaran luar nikah from JAIJ passed! tho ayah had to angkat sumpah syarie, (more on that later) it went well. Ayah said he's going to JAWI today. To settle it all.
3, sad, I'm not getting married in my hometown, JB but in KL, just because my mom said it's convenient for everybody (yup, bride's feeling not that important)
4, very sad, since the wedding will be in KL, few of my friends can't make it.
5, scared I might be disappointed, since the wedding is two weeks after raya, people might have splurge their money on raya prep, I'm a bit scared and sad few might come up and say they might not be able to make it, no money already...

I know right. no happy feelings at all. but too late to complaint now.
I just hope i'll get my reward after the wedding. prolly  a new laptop (hint). hehe.

see ya later, aligator!

moodswings

john mayer work wonders in that time of the month.